Well , hello. =]
Good news , tabby survived till day 4, this has proven girl doesnt shoot torpedoes from their breast or guys have a hidden club hidden somewhere that is meant for you if you talk to their girls.
Each day it's getting easier to approach girls =] , i think i am feeling momentum , all i did was feeding that pua in me with a daily dosage of Good beliefs , and removal of negetive beliefs.and forcing myself to make a approach even with lame stuff. I did the confidence thingy that skilldo taught me every single day .. Sometimes once , sometimes more than once. Basically abused the stuff.. and read the 35 yr old guy again and again like bed time story just to get the stuff into your thick head.
By the way , did i tell you i practise in the mirror too ?? , talked to myself in the mirror. Somehow it works , it's like the other guy is your subconscious ya know? I found out , the more you liked yourself the more confidence you had , i think it's thouse bad boy theory , they are so cocky and full of themself they get woman. By the way did i tell you arrogance can be tuned down to high confidence :)?. So look in the mirror and say , how beautiful you are or handsome. Dont worry about your dog laughing at you or cat or anything that has 4 legs , or wings. Because they cant ;). One day you will believe it, okay so you say , ____you name here____ is not handsome or pretty or w/e.
But lemme tell you something , think 40k years back , where we are living in around 50 ppl tribe, will you still be so self conscious? i dont think so , why? because there's no mirrors , no tv to say that using their cream would magically make you beautifully ugly. At that time you had nothing to do except killing poor tigers and animals. Your a man , so naturally by the law of nature you wanna fuck. Okay this is what i heard , in the past your cerebral cortex isnt smart enough to imagine or something like that , so masterbating is out of the equation. So horny, and ready to caveman any guys to taste the sweet holy grail . You go all out , with hornyness as your weapon.
Now , we masterbate anytime anywhere we want. so our best friend for mating turns from gals to our right hand, man!!. I mean , really no hussle of making gals horny or making friends with them no qualifying and stuff... right? And this is like 24 hours , (like what your hand's gonna say no? and asking you to buy it rings and stuff so it would be pretty for you to do your hand party?)
Anywhere anyplace.So our hornyness drops , and with social programming we aint suppose to show gals our intention or we would be label as pervert , or werid uncle for your case. Hmm so what are we looking here, the more intelligent you are , the more shit u become. I recently finish watching fight club and i dont really like the show , but one thing tyle durden said is kinda true. We all work to buy things we dont need. Ahhh.. So gals get lonely .. (hang on i didnt add the factor of tv and computer gaming yet)
Sadly in the world where cream is the measurement of your self-esteem . Our self worth doesnt come from ourself anymore , it comes from the tv commercial and stuff. Jesus , back in the knight days , have you heard anyone killing themselves because they are too fat?? . Hmm !!
well another thing is , we are dying by the second.. also by Fight Club.. Hmmm, seriously in the morning i woke up feeling unalign with my purpose, felt boredom and feeling empty , after getting a hold on myself i felt great, and i told myself to make the best out of today.
It reminds me of a short story , i think it was from hindu. but i make it short , tabby version
We were once god, then we did something wrong then the big man up there (basically the big big god) banish us to earth, so the big big god let's call him the BG!!! decided to take away our powers. So BG starts to think where do i hide this? if i hide it on top of the mountain , man would climb the highest mountain to obtain it, if i hide it in the deepest of the ocean , one day man would go swim and retrieve it , then he decided to hide it in a place , so obvious to us , but we would never guess it. It is in us. Basically that's the short version of it.
So back to today, =] didnt did much but opened a gal , she was sitting on the other table =]
so she went off , and when she come back . I kinda need the toliet so i said something pretty bold for me (a level increased!!!)
Tabby : hey could you help me to take care of my computer? since i help you to take care of yours?
Girls : okay =] thanks!!
lock myself out again , but anyway was congratulating myself for going up next level.
So went back to my computer , didnt felt the need to do anything =p. Feeling happy and particularly evil and wanna have fun i went around tormenting myfriends on msn besides i need practise :], did great job , made girls laughed , and starting to loosen up . I found out that a big part of playfulness is living the moment not thinking about anything else but the particular moment , concentrating everything you have on the moment creating the flow.
For more info go to wikipedia http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Flow_%28psychology%29
Flow is the best state of mind to meet gals cuz your so engross in the moment your having fun =). So at least now i know which state of mind i wanna be in , i going to experiment on these few days ( i read a few physiologically books so i think i am more than qualified ,anyway physiology is the study of how the mind works, so i think i am up to the standard , who gives a fuck about the paper anyway??)
anyway the result were !! i am going to a new church with a galfriend of mine ^^ , let's treat it as a mini date shall we ;P
here's how i did it
she gotten praise the lord or something on her msn subtitle, i took it as my common grab point , and volia , i told her i wanna conquer her church haha :) put my flag there and yes , church is a great place to train ;) see you tml , she's gonna call me at 12a.m , i aint good terms with her in school , perhaps she notice , i aint a sheep anymore a real pua , that why she didnt resist.
(got a feeling she's lonely and i am just the thing the doctor ordered.)
After all , who can resist , a man who knows what woman want , and is ready to give it to her ;)
post some fr tml... oo have a great night.
One last thing before i retire as a pua (pickup begin when you first awake and stop when you sleep) i thought of a new underground dirty trick , today i found a mp3 pouch , unfortunately nothing inside but it gave me something to open a set about =] which i did , a 4 set but they are studying so let the poor sheeps study how to get slaughtered , but it gave me an idea, a gimmick opener , buy a werid looking pouch or something , tap on the shoulder or w/e of your target
(remember kino as early as possible to break the stranger's barrier and say
Tabby : Is this yours? did you drop this?
Girl : is she say yes.. then i dont think u wanna b wif her , if no proceed to number 3
Girl : no
Tabby : okay i thought it's yours , how about checking your bag or something?
Girl (most likely ) : no
Tabby okay , cuz i found this thing in the library once , not a pounch but a small soft toy... blah blah blah then the girl said no , in the end , she came back for it.. so wanna make sure blah blah.
You know what i gonna call it , dirty tabby tricks for now . Not sure anyone discover this , but too bad i posted it first in my world (your in my world now) so i going to try this some day =) anyone wanna sponsor a pouch?
Friday, October 12, 2007
Thursday, October 11, 2007
Day 3 ...
Wooo, finally woke up and felt great ^_^ from the last 2 days of constant whinning, i am sure you guy's ears are tired of hearing it.
Yesterday i finally realise what attraction is , it just hitting me like a bolt from the blue.
Ahh, to be intresting , different and having the basic attractive quality a cavewoman would love
that's attraction.
Haha i just realise what to do in social dynamics , it's kinda werid that why didnt this thoughts occur to me.
It's been more than 3 or 4 months since i first started on this hobby , now i think it's approaching 5th month?? , yesterday i was feeling low and watching style's video and mystery said , 6 months it takes for it to resemble something that looked like mastery , mastery is prob 1 1/2 years. So if this is true then i must be a little gifted for this because i notice a lot of stuff that i never notice before
it's like my awareness increased
i can see sets , who's the amog (alpha male of the group , basically the king of that small little group or the limelight) who's the proactive one and stuff.
i can see basic IOIs , body language if it's good or not good , basically what the guy is feeling with his body language and stuff , it's like having a small voice in your head or a feeling , that you know what's he's feeling . When i look at a guy , i look at his body language is like his body is talking... oohhh spooky certainly helps =]. like i can also see my value , if it's up or low , what r the levels and stuff =] . I am certainly looking forward to see a few more months what would happen to my pickup radar i know it would be increased
hahaha while walking to the library i realise something that's always there but i always forgotten, pick ups are not about lines and stuff , it's about entering and be in the moment =] like negotiation or some sort , for a moment i lost myself and almost becoming a social robot. Thank god for bring me out there haha.
i was afraid because i was too self conscious about the lines if it works or not , like juggler said as a opening line , a fart or a grunt is sufficient .
hmm i am surely going for the Saturday's magic class , hope to see you guys there ;)
a little magic man wont hurt rite ^^. Tml is my graduation day , i see if i can hook up some dates on monday or something (wish me luck =X)
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Update , i opened a 3 , 2sets. by using the excuse , hey can you help me take care of my computer (works everytime like a charm)
First 2 set was behind me , i was sitting in the **** library , so i turned around and ask them
Tabby: hey could you help me take care of my computer while i go to the toliet? if it's still around i will show u a magic trick.
Man : Ya sure , hey what about your game? (my screen was dota loading)
Tabby: Oh nvm about that (went toliet)
(the gal didnt speak at all)
---------------------Tabby came back-----------------------------------------
man was playing dota , he chose viper
Tabby felt it was kinda rude.. but doesnt matter , just say thx =] and continue playing..
didnt know what to continue from there... (locked myself too..)
Next set , girl and girl..
Nothing 2 say =S
Next set , guy and girl again ...
tabby turned around , and said hey can you help me take care of my computer?
Gal : okay (doesnt seem to enthu..)
guy:..........
-------------------------------------Tabby returned back---------------------------------
(i wanted to challenge myself to say a few more words rather than.. can you please take care of my computer so i wanted to test something , i wanted to pretend i saw the guy in school and this is what happened )
Tabby : (makes a curious look ) hey , are you from my school??
guy : (makes a "no" look)
Tabby : yea cuz i thought i saw you in my school
girl : laughed
sigh after that tabby didnt know how to continue , i think i locked myself out =S .
but i can feel it was hot.. i should have stack openers??
like jealous girlfriend?? nvm i wont give up on figuring out how to get to a pua status
Yesterday i finally realise what attraction is , it just hitting me like a bolt from the blue.
Ahh, to be intresting , different and having the basic attractive quality a cavewoman would love
that's attraction.
Haha i just realise what to do in social dynamics , it's kinda werid that why didnt this thoughts occur to me.
It's been more than 3 or 4 months since i first started on this hobby , now i think it's approaching 5th month?? , yesterday i was feeling low and watching style's video and mystery said , 6 months it takes for it to resemble something that looked like mastery , mastery is prob 1 1/2 years. So if this is true then i must be a little gifted for this because i notice a lot of stuff that i never notice before
it's like my awareness increased
i can see sets , who's the amog (alpha male of the group , basically the king of that small little group or the limelight) who's the proactive one and stuff.
i can see basic IOIs , body language if it's good or not good , basically what the guy is feeling with his body language and stuff , it's like having a small voice in your head or a feeling , that you know what's he's feeling . When i look at a guy , i look at his body language is like his body is talking... oohhh spooky certainly helps =]. like i can also see my value , if it's up or low , what r the levels and stuff =] . I am certainly looking forward to see a few more months what would happen to my pickup radar i know it would be increased
hahaha while walking to the library i realise something that's always there but i always forgotten, pick ups are not about lines and stuff , it's about entering and be in the moment =] like negotiation or some sort , for a moment i lost myself and almost becoming a social robot. Thank god for bring me out there haha.
i was afraid because i was too self conscious about the lines if it works or not , like juggler said as a opening line , a fart or a grunt is sufficient .
hmm i am surely going for the Saturday's magic class , hope to see you guys there ;)
a little magic man wont hurt rite ^^. Tml is my graduation day , i see if i can hook up some dates on monday or something (wish me luck =X)
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Update , i opened a 3 , 2sets. by using the excuse , hey can you help me take care of my computer (works everytime like a charm)
First 2 set was behind me , i was sitting in the **** library , so i turned around and ask them
Tabby: hey could you help me take care of my computer while i go to the toliet? if it's still around i will show u a magic trick.
Man : Ya sure , hey what about your game? (my screen was dota loading)
Tabby: Oh nvm about that (went toliet)
(the gal didnt speak at all)
---------------------Tabby came back-----------------------------------------
man was playing dota , he chose viper
Tabby felt it was kinda rude.. but doesnt matter , just say thx =] and continue playing..
didnt know what to continue from there... (locked myself too..)
Next set , girl and girl..
Nothing 2 say =S
Next set , guy and girl again ...
tabby turned around , and said hey can you help me take care of my computer?
Gal : okay (doesnt seem to enthu..)
guy:..........
-------------------------------------Tabby returned back---------------------------------
(i wanted to challenge myself to say a few more words rather than.. can you please take care of my computer so i wanted to test something , i wanted to pretend i saw the guy in school and this is what happened )
Tabby : (makes a curious look ) hey , are you from my school??
guy : (makes a "no" look)
Tabby : yea cuz i thought i saw you in my school
girl : laughed
sigh after that tabby didnt know how to continue , i think i locked myself out =S .
but i can feel it was hot.. i should have stack openers??
like jealous girlfriend?? nvm i wont give up on figuring out how to get to a pua status
Wednesday, October 10, 2007
Day2...
Day 2 morals was low.. very low, i woke up and i felt really sick.
Sick from yesterday's overdosage of approach anxiety.
didnt feel good , was it my bed or was it me.
Yesterday i missed a chance , i remember that yesterday i had a chance to open a cutie gal , she was around when thouse 4 girls came and surround me , gimme me so much pre-seeding value (it turns out tat pre-seeding is one of the strongest) Sigh, she was sitting across me , and "peeping" at me while i typed yesterday's blog , she stayed until around this time 8.38p.m , i should have opened her.
Damn tabby , you should have said anything , like hey you know your hello kitty reminds me of an incident which ......
or
i can see your bored , i am bored too so i came over and join you
or
or
or
or
WHY??? WHY DIDNT I DO IT?? WHYYY???
=( sigh lemme tell you why , i was afraid of success , i was afraid what do i say after i got her hooked. i wasnt afraid of rejection because there's only 1 way 2 go after rejection .Okay Nice meeting you.
Haizz , i been thinking , why didnt i start to open her??? what's my problems , i dont have the fear of rejection , but i fear of success??? what logic is that?
but i not going to let this get me down , i going just try again and again.
Btw guys , this 13?? or 14th is the magic thingy . Ya i am going (even tho i dunno where to get the $$ yet) i figure that if i had magic i could use it as a cushion .
Of course i wanna run a great game , without magic . Only using attraction based , however i felt it to be so hard without a cushion .
I guess what's holding me back is the social fear, what if what if what if.
Every what if is like me dying 1 time , i am slowly bleeding here.. help me!!!.
in the morning i felt sick , so i didnt went out , maybe 2 eat . but i went back home again
Things start to make me bleed again , things like Hey you should not be doing this , why not study hard
Yes rite , study , study , study and look back and say.. oh why am i still having a hand party?
now i think back , in life there's so many people wanted me to fail
My mom
Fuck head uncle
My friends
My teacher (yes , they told me studying hard is the way , settle down and worry for the future)
and myself
I realise something , whenever i tried to think of opening , myself would start doing self-defeating habits.
i realise that whenever i try to change it's myself who trys to stop me.
Do i give up on love? no , truthfully i could have said to myself , ahh fuck it you know i had like 2 girls who fell in love with me (had shitty time with) so i should give up , god aint gimme me a chance.
I re-read the book the game , it's like my bible , i wanted to find words to encourage me , i feel so lost like what to do? then i read something tat style wrote that goes something like this : The universe gives you everything you need , but it doesnt drop it on your lap but drops it somewhere else , it's not because the universe is cruel , it's because it is smart , it has it's own cat string theory ,it knows that people dont appeciate things that they gotten easily.
Doesnt matter , i wont give up or give in It's time to change.
Altho right now i dont feel attracted to anyone (okay okay maybe 2 the body) but no real attraction sometimes i doubt myself , but i just wanna believe something that i believe years ago.
I had a dream of me and my future gf (whoever she is , is going to be damn lucky ) and i believe that like every seashell , there's a pieace out there that suits you.
I dont care , i am going to work hard on understanding myself , i am sure there is a bypass hoop on this. One day when i discover it i going to teach others
I believe this will be temporary , i am going , going to hold on tight. Until my help arrives
Sick from yesterday's overdosage of approach anxiety.
didnt feel good , was it my bed or was it me.
Yesterday i missed a chance , i remember that yesterday i had a chance to open a cutie gal , she was around when thouse 4 girls came and surround me , gimme me so much pre-seeding value (it turns out tat pre-seeding is one of the strongest) Sigh, she was sitting across me , and "peeping" at me while i typed yesterday's blog , she stayed until around this time 8.38p.m , i should have opened her.
Damn tabby , you should have said anything , like hey you know your hello kitty reminds me of an incident which ......
or
i can see your bored , i am bored too so i came over and join you
or
or
or
or
WHY??? WHY DIDNT I DO IT?? WHYYY???
=( sigh lemme tell you why , i was afraid of success , i was afraid what do i say after i got her hooked. i wasnt afraid of rejection because there's only 1 way 2 go after rejection .Okay Nice meeting you.
Haizz , i been thinking , why didnt i start to open her??? what's my problems , i dont have the fear of rejection , but i fear of success??? what logic is that?
but i not going to let this get me down , i going just try again and again.
Btw guys , this 13?? or 14th is the magic thingy . Ya i am going (even tho i dunno where to get the $$ yet) i figure that if i had magic i could use it as a cushion .
Of course i wanna run a great game , without magic . Only using attraction based , however i felt it to be so hard without a cushion .
I guess what's holding me back is the social fear, what if what if what if.
Every what if is like me dying 1 time , i am slowly bleeding here.. help me!!!.
in the morning i felt sick , so i didnt went out , maybe 2 eat . but i went back home again
Things start to make me bleed again , things like Hey you should not be doing this , why not study hard
Yes rite , study , study , study and look back and say.. oh why am i still having a hand party?
now i think back , in life there's so many people wanted me to fail
My mom
Fuck head uncle
My friends
My teacher (yes , they told me studying hard is the way , settle down and worry for the future)
and myself
I realise something , whenever i tried to think of opening , myself would start doing self-defeating habits.
i realise that whenever i try to change it's myself who trys to stop me.
Do i give up on love? no , truthfully i could have said to myself , ahh fuck it you know i had like 2 girls who fell in love with me (had shitty time with) so i should give up , god aint gimme me a chance.
I re-read the book the game , it's like my bible , i wanted to find words to encourage me , i feel so lost like what to do? then i read something tat style wrote that goes something like this : The universe gives you everything you need , but it doesnt drop it on your lap but drops it somewhere else , it's not because the universe is cruel , it's because it is smart , it has it's own cat string theory ,it knows that people dont appeciate things that they gotten easily.
Doesnt matter , i wont give up or give in It's time to change.
Altho right now i dont feel attracted to anyone (okay okay maybe 2 the body) but no real attraction sometimes i doubt myself , but i just wanna believe something that i believe years ago.
I had a dream of me and my future gf (whoever she is , is going to be damn lucky ) and i believe that like every seashell , there's a pieace out there that suits you.
I dont care , i am going to work hard on understanding myself , i am sure there is a bypass hoop on this. One day when i discover it i going to teach others
I believe this will be temporary , i am going , going to hold on tight. Until my help arrives
Tuesday, October 09, 2007
First pua title
Hey guys out there , i am tabbythepua
This is the journey of TabbytheAfc to Tabbythepua
It's been a few months since i last blogged , my last blogged crash & burned :(
Didnt last for a long time, i hope this time i would record my journey from a afc to a pua.
Hmm i wont go into the long long long detail from how i came across these seduction materials but i will just start from today. Perhaps in my post you would find some of my past and stuff
so let's go
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It was werid yesterday 8/10/07, i wanted to go play the 5 dollars for the whole day package from 10-10
12 hours of gaming , but while playing at around 5 pm (i started at 12) i stopped... I felt odd and one part of me wanted to go sarging,Perhaps it's because i had awaken the pua in me after attending to skilldo's course, i remeber that day when i graduated or complete from skilldo's course i talk to him after class about his experience and some of my sticking points.
Haha skilldo is a great guy , =] to his gf : you found a great guy . He's a great teacher by the way
i could see that he's really retired from the dating world. Good luck buddy!!.. Anyway back to e story , i exited early , feeling odd and sick , one part of me wanted to go Sarging... Sigh, in the end thoughts enter in and out , i felt sick and just went home . I had approach anxiety...
I went to sleep and woke up 9.p.m i started to doubt myself if i would to be able to become what i should be a great pua...
i finally understood that being a pua would REALLY REALLY mean to meeting and dating , finding and attract different different type of girls...
I guess being a pua would really meant you must have a xing li zhun pei , preparation that , you are going to change your lifestyle.
No more sitting on the sofa watching tv and stuff.
I sacrifice a lot for this.
my 300 bucks for psp
Going to the library even tho i wanted to play just to dl seduction materials
lost 2 friends 0ne i told her i was becomming a pua , she took it in the wrong direction and think i am a player.. another , she's a emo basket , whenever i went out for "dates" with her , i ended up a emo papaya. so i cut her off .
Endless hours of sleep , pretending , talking to the air , practising my speech to ghost and trees and furniture (my mom thought i lost my mind )and stuff
And many more...
Fuck this man , i aint giving up , if life pushed me , i am pushing back .
Anyway that night i was like fuck it , i wanted to do the asking "50 girls would you like to fuck" routine, Just hopefully get slap and get over the fucking fucking fucking social fear i got..
i remeber 2 regrets since i started my pua journey.
one that super chio hot lava cute girl i wanted to open in the mrt ...that i am in when i went back home from after completing the seduction course
second the girl who sit beside me when i was going home feeling depressed . I could have fucking open both of them , and it's like god had given me the message and green light ...
Here's the thing , really skilldo is right , regrets are unliveable ...
And the only thing i can do now is .. hope they appear back into my life so i can redeem my sins
and proceed to pua heaven.
First chio lava girl , i thought of a new opener it's called the 2 finger why cant i kiss you opener, skilldo when i was talking to him , he taught me a chick crack so .. i wanted to use that. but i just didnt wanna go.,. i dunno why i was like i just wanna sit here.. i had guts trust me but just didnt wanna go
then i tried positive talking.. positive thoughts came to mind .... like hey your a pua trainee now , so act like one... didnt really helped... sigh, then my signal came.. , 2 indians at city hall , when the mrt was approaching , they both went and faced the wrong door (where it's not the exit) and i barely contain my laughter , i faced and see the girl , she was containing her laughter too , damn perfect chance , i blew it . When i finally woke up , like what am i doing i am a pua trainee. she's gone...
Damn i could have own her
2nd one was in the bus.... she sat beside me .., werid there is so many sits , sit beside me only. Then something rang like a alarm bell in my head . Aprroximity (w/e i dunno how to spell) , she prob see that i am a intrest 2 her... then i wanted to use the bloody opener as a social experiment.....
Nope , didnt dare 2 , and god send me a sign... the traffic was bloody long , suddenly when she comes in , i gotten a lot of traffic jams.. red lights and stuff...
JESUS CHRIST.... =( yes she's around 13 or 14 ... but still a new friend doesnt hurt...
i could see signs that she noticed me and she's bored. bored gals are just so easy 2 open..
i just look at her and was like... then look away , she look straight , Total afc ...
Thinking back of the 2 incident broke my little rafc heart... so that night.. i went out , i was having social fear , approach anxiety , regret and stuff.. so i was like... while walking in the night , i knew i had to do something if i wanan go ahead and level up.. HEre's how , i imagine right now i am wearing a regret and w/e bullshit suit , so i took it off mentally , and took on my experimental robe, (which was a kinda of a scientist one) So basically my mission is 2 use my new opener, and then kino , then ask would you like to fuck and get a slap. 50 slaps anyway.See if i would die , or girls's boobs will fire nuclear mission and burn me into eternal damnation or i would go to jail and have no girls and gay around for life.
so i went to the nearby 7 eleven , omg it's a guy , i dont gays around infact i am not fond of gays so i pass, i went to the next store hoping that it would be a gal
i entered in .. and i didnt saw anyone so i went to the fridge took a bottle of 1.5litre of carrot juice.At that moment i felt like a rabbit anyway not a wolf.. so i went to the counter and i saw this a old lady..
OKAY I DO NOT TARGET OLD LADIES , I JUST EXPERIMENTING . NOT LIKE OLD LADIES SITTING ON MY LAP IS MY THINGY..
lemme guess , out of my age , and looking werid .She's around 40?? maybe more? okay here's what happened... She was doing something , marking papers or something (it turns out later on to be her.. ordering papers). So i didnt know that, so i paid for my carrot juice.. And i didnt think of anything and i just said :
Tabby:Is it bored at night?
CheersAuntie : not really got things to do mah
Tabby :Okay auntie i am kinda bored so i wanna show you a magic trick.
CheersAuntie : (reaction was like .. should i or should not so i answer for her)
Tabby : hey auntie do this. .. put your hands together blah blah blah... (then i tried kino.. )
CheersAuntie backed out..
Poor Tabby pushed 20%..
CheersAuntie : sorry i got stuff 2 do .. (blew me off)
Ahhh... so i exit gracefully and said thanks bye. (i wish i knew seductionmagic that day, maybe i could cheer her up =] ) actually one of my mission statement was to make every gal i come across 2 feel good and leave her in a better condition that i found her. Inspiration? from joss a NLP seducer. So i left , my mind was like .. Okay so she doesnt wanna feel good , not my problems it's hers =P YAY a pua sentence
However let's looks at the facts , okay i failed horribly.. , i gotten a blew off , was rejected . And for some werid cosmic cosmo mooo moo reason it felt good. It's like i have so many BS thingy going into my mind , a rejection really helps. It's like what's worse than that? Is that the worse? LOL then i think i am ready to take over the world.
Btw.. she's a turn off , so .. i didnt wanna do the 50 dates , it's cool =] i congras myself after doing that , i threw in a mini party , nothing except a bottle of carrot juice.. Ahh my tail right now seems like a wolf .
However before i did that ... it's was tough , but right now i remeber a quote that is stuck with me i once read from a report from another PUA that reside in the USA.. that confidence means confidently expressing everything. so i confidently told my self you can say this with shit confidence , or real confidence , shit confidence means she would give you shit results , while real confidence means gimme real results..
so basic pickup theory , Real effort = Real results = real Experience = Real improvements
my mood went positive... So i wanted to do another crazy stunts.. that AFC me would never do
so i head my way to... the east coast park , was walking on this passway , and right infront of me , i saw my next victim..
No , it wasnt a dog , or a cat , or a girl... YEs.. Yess you guess it , a guy... A male jogger.
I dunno him , and he obviously dunno me, he was jogging suddenly all my fears went away and i just wanna make fun of him.. so i said the universal opener..
HI
Results was that , he stopped on his track (ooo my charming) and he was like O_O ??(who are you look)
Tabbytheevilpua: HI!!!
Poor victim: O_O... what you doing here
Tabbytheevilpua: Nah just a greetings :) , see ya. BYE.
Poor victim : Uhh.. okay..
of course i panicked a bit , but it's all good =]
In the past , if i were 2 do this , which i would not purposely i would start thinking , omg.. what will he think of me and stuff . But right now , i was like hmm.. okay =] let's continue , very very minimal of caring what the other guy is thinking.
I just gotta get rid of the programming that i had from birth .
HAHA i got the flow back =] well a part of it..
Now from a rabbit , tabby is turning into a cat =] a very vicious little cat...
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Right now i am watching the pick up artist espisode 3 from VH1.. and if that's not enough , i just watched the part mystery told that indian guy , the 2 finger stuff .. i was like shit , so this is the way 2 do it... a much better version of it =] cool i going to try it. Results from my last finger thingy that i created was ABSOLUTELY FAILURE , I TRIED IT WITH MY MOM TOO. it kinda failed , this time i going try mystery's =] oh while talking about my mom , i notice thouse who's like milf.. you know already mothers (i meant like 40+ or 50+) they aint so into chick crack as tested on my mom and that cheers auntie.
Today.. is 9/10/07 . Great day to be sarging, as mystery once said it aint natural to stay home.
Well didnt went to school today , came back from yesterday experiement at 3a.m.. so i couldnt wake up . I was thinking of storming the whole school .After all it's like my last year. Thinking of that , means that i am going army .. i took the medical test , and needa to wake awhile for the report . i am G6pD deficiency so i would have to wait for a while for the report to appear. =]
Well , since i wanted to go to school today , i slept wearing my school uniform, so when i woke up i was like .. in school uniform (DUH!!). I didnt know what to do today , so i decided to head for the library to catch up on the pickup artist series , hopefully it helps my game =p. It actually did , i now realise part of my game that i thought i had mastered . Mystery is one guy i would like to meet , and have him to coach me. You know i once wanted to be the world's greatest pickup artist too , but to me , me and mystery had a few similarities
1. We have the policy of not leaving anyone behind.
2. He loves to teach , i love too =]
3. I love to be the leader or i love to lead , same like mystery
4. I love girls , same like mystery
HAHA can tabby be the next mystery??? watch this blog 1 year later . Now back to my sticking point. Anyway watching the pickupartist really makes me feel motivated and shows me what can be done , it helps a lot , i now know roughly what would happen in the field =] so , more confidence right now.
By the way this was drafted more than twice the first draft was more unreadable.. now it's much more readable , so i kinda feel something werid , i dunno about you guys anyway i will continue.
I decided in the morning to do something something out of the norm. i was afraid of changing my wardrobe , and stuff , i really hate myself in the past , my nose look like jackie chan (some girl i date with told me tat ) i was really insecure , now i can say this . Hey are you jealous that i have a nose that attract girls? , oh dont be . Come kor kor give you hug hug kiss kiss , dont be jealous.
HAha i am laughing right now. I think back and i seen i came so far , Watching the pickup artist really reminds me of my past achievements. Now failures seemed funny HAHAH :)
This is who i am , a pickup artist . Yes a student pickup artist , a pickup artist means really a pickup using artistic approach . I found out that talk to a gal is an art , handling an objection is an art. kissing is an art. HAHAH i loved to be who i am a pickup artist.. so working towards attaining something called 545 , it's 5 sets getting all 5 sets numbers.
Hmm right now at 7.02 pm in the library , was thinking back about my past experience when i didnt know seduction material and stuff hahah was kinda fun. I used to go 1-1 with one of the most desirable gals in my class and i didnt count that as a date. (well i didnt know) about instant dates and stuff. Haha , she was the one gimme the shit test of the nose, i didnt take it too good tat day , but now it's like a breeze , it's amazing how much you achieve for stepping out of your comfort zone.
I remeber the day i was at SD's office outside , i was like.. should i go in ? or not, i am glad i opened the door. That's the day my afc died , and now i am a offically RAFC . However i wont call myself as a real pua unless i gotten the below.
1. my approaches is working at least 2 numbers from streets or library
2 numbers from friendster or internet
2.Kiss closing
3. F closing (hehehe the reward of a pua)
my approach is kinda good around 40% complete
my attraction is VERY BAD around 10% i always find myself stuck in the friends zone
my comfort is lol very good around 70% goodness juice (or else how i end in FZ?)
Seduction ? :P not gonna tell ya.. hhahaha
Social dynamics 0 %!!! biggest sticking point
moving targets should be good , cuz i done survying before :) and did moving target Never tried
my sticking point? understanding attraction .. HHEHE :) getting that , it's all a breeze , hey any kor kor wanna teach me? like really go in the field and really show me and teach me??. Cuz for me i learn by doing , so if u tell me i wont really understand it , i will only know it. anyway today something happened to me , i found another sticking point SOCIAL DYNAMICS. omg i cant handle today .. here's what happen..
i am like joe D =p cant really build attraction and fear of physical intimacy but the physical intimacy part is much more smoother out ,the more serious my sticking point is .. social dynamics.
i got this problem of dressing last time i would be very self-conscious about my clothing like is this okay? i would ask my bro is this okay? is this jell okay? wax? and i waxing good? how's my hair? now i know it doesnt matter , it's not the looks. If you do that , it means for you your looks is your value which is not. so what if u got accident , so u gonna quit the dating game for good? just because like a few strings of your hair is burn off? right now i understand a little about social value , what is value how value feels like . I feel confident , you cant get self -esteem from anywhere only from pushing out of your comfort-zone. i felt like shit in the morning , now i feel like a tiger.
I finally understand one thing , standing from a rafc turnning pua point of view , i was going for perfection. Well as juggler says there's one thing about perfectionist , they dont do anything.
It's okay to be inperfect , infact it's good to be inperfect , you could use it for conversation and for gals to see that u use something that could be insecure as your conversation asking for advice is pure sweet confidence in action :).
okay sorry i side track , back to the story.
I wear a school uniform and a sandal and took my laptop , and i took bus ** to a library. In the bus i saw this group of girls.. from my school wearing school uniform , i took a closer look and it's the gals that i know (sec 1 :) yummy) from a friend T , i was in the bus like oh.. oh .. oh ..shit.
oh yea in the bus there are GALS ALL OVER, it's like when i started this journey seriously gals being to show up. It's mind over matter , i know i am ready however i was feeling uneasy
now i know why , i didnt have my routine , attraction material right (didnt do them just went library) oh how? i think i am going to die by the fire. i need to go home and draft out a complete game by tonight , and start gaming.. add more info tml ;)
another good skill to have is to control your emotion , especially approach anxiety. I worked before and gotten the title of the best surveyer . Gotten 100 ++ number in a day 4 hours. So i had something inside of me. =). A good thinking to have is NEVER EVER TRUST YOUR IMAGINATION. Yes never trust your imagination if you wanna go in field. Have this belief of , What ever i think right now , will most likely not happen , the field is unexpected and versatile.Anything could go wrong and will go wrong for you. So all i can do is to take the problems on , when it comes not before it comes.
i went library , hopefully they were in first (so i can try an opener which is like smile at them and not saying a word) why i did this ,is because #1 i know them , #2 they know me #3 i dont wanna lose value and just trying a new opener. so typing here i was watching the pickup artist 7 , and they said something which is true i am afraid of success . i remeber once i didnt pull the trigger =] and suck me back to LJBF zone.. hahaha but is okay , at least i learned something right?
hah so true barriers are meant to be broken , way to go joe.
so i was sitting there , nope didnt see them , so i proceed to prepare my stuff on my computer and stuff , then they came from the elevator. 4 girls , 1 fat , 3 chio cute and ready to be slaughted by the great tabby. Hey you must be thinking , thouse were T's girls but T had a gf and told me tat he didnt want to be too attached to them. So it's a fair game, T is a friend of mine , who is 1 year younger than me , but had dating experiences. He's a natural he using playfulness as a tatic for attraction. And guess what , one of them got hooked :) she has a crush with T.
Now the fat one is called Fgal , then newgal and cutiegal and cutiegal2
A brief history they are all friends , i do not know very well with Fgal and newgal , i went for a mini date before with cutiegal and cutiegal2 how it happened? i went to a arcade and saw them , then i was like hey , your t's friend , they were like yea. We played and we won a soft toy (on the crane thingy) should have used the fate -etching , but anyway didnt know about seduction stuff anyway. :) , i gave it 2 cutiegal
They were out , one of them saw me. it was cutiegal2, she point out at me like a honey to a bee
They buzz into my face in less than a second. My social value went to the top. Fgal doesnt seem too happy , they fly and touches my computer and mouse then this happened i had a panick attack , i didnt let them touch my computer
i just set up my computer (was at the login page) i logged in and they took my mouse and play i was like ahhh annoying... i logged in and in my front page there's this cute little dota panda verson ,
they were like .. ee act cute, i replied , it is cute ... i tried some stuff like , what you all doing here.. one major thing i did was , i told them 2 go do their stuff and not disturb me the Cutiegal always disturbing me saying wanted to see me play wanted to see me play... they sticked around... i kept doing that ( i was like horrrr... the heavens aparted and my pua is out) is it the pua out?? no i screwed up , i screwed up in the social dynamics... omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg...when i got the 4 girls hooked , The fat one came and isnt too happy about it and cock block me ... .!! i gotta get the situation back.. be cool about it tabby .. be cool...
i tried to counter with the bloody finger magic stuff , so i told them when they are about to leave, hey wanna see a magic??(i should have fucking noT!! )
they would like yea yea ( i could see they intrested , the CB went off , was pissed and wanted me to fail . i could see tat , so as a pua you can see , you must must handle social pressure , especially if they would like be kids) i tried the finger stuff on a girl who i not really know... haha FaTCB tried to make me fail .. hahahah , hey i just click back and watched the pickup artist , and i realise something , wow my game just gone up from realising this. THe cat sting theory , i didnt do that , i was concentrating on this one girl i dunno , (from the 5 , 3 of them tried , cutiegal2 was thinking where the magic is , the Newgal was tat girl who i focus on who's in front of me , the cutiegal was beside me , .. i know the cutiegal one better
i made a mistake actually 3
1. I should have focus on more on the cutiegal one who i know better , i just showed my intent... shit..
2. when i make one of them have the position , i should have gone to another one... , like throwing a ball , and let the cat see .. increases my value
3.. i should not have ask them all 2 try , maybe only 1... .......damn
But the result ... The newgal who i focus the most , i know she was attracted to me , i just demostrated my seeding/pre-selection quality , by having her peers comming to me and stuff.
i think that , at that moment i was the highest in value in that group , she was one of the lowest value in the group , she had to capture my attention to validate herself and increase her value. (do you know how i know? , before the magic thingy , i didnt cared about her when she keep saying.. say bye leh , say bye , it's like she wanted to say me to notice her , i said bye quickly and turned Yes i did right , make her work 4 it. ) but after my magic , i focus too much on her , damn.....
So FatCB went back , all 4 girls saw tat fatcb wasnt very happy , so they reluctenly go. except cutegirl, she wanted 2 stay but i told her , i nid to play so i go .. haha oldcutegal played with my mouse , like shaking it real hard , i touch my mousepad trying to get my control back..
seriously social dynamics i dont really understand , i my niche is on one 2 one.. more than one i will panick , but this time btr , when i was an afc , i would like WTF WTF WTF , but it's much better..
anyway.. i gotten peace and quiet. cutiegal came back . Here's some insider talk ...
she beside me (reminds me of a cat , i really like this cutiegal ... she is like your regular party gal , she cant stand intellectual stuff rather like to play around... really really cute girl.. ooo i wanna her to be my gf already.. anyway) you know how my school girl sit?? they kinda squat , so one fist blocking the skirt , cant lemme see the panties , anyway if she lemme see the panties i got something to counter.. haha
so here it goes
Tabby: Hey what you doing here?
Tabby : haha trying to know T's info right? (she has a crush with T but T had gf liao)
Cutiegal : T got TGF liao...
Tabby: well ppl do change one.
Cutiegal: (sad voice) ppl dont..
Tabby: If you trying to get more info with T , i charge 50 bucks for a question
Cutiegal laughed
sob.. after typing this , life threw something at me 3 gals came... !!!!!!!!!!!!!!
cutiegal , newgal and oldcutegal came.. fuck..i wasnt prepared for it so i had to cancel this draft , luckily i did so , i think they looked a bit , hopefully they dunno the blog of this site
well... i think skilldo would say something , always be prepared... damn this is ... one of the hardest part of a pua... you have no skills and you are forced into a situation where you cant do any fucking thing .
Sob sob , they wanted 2 play the computer , i didnt let them ... i didnt wanna jump into their hoops and i was watching something anyway , they disturb me so i told them 2 go away i tried to save the situation by telling them , hey let's make a deal , if you can win me in thumb wrestling i would let you use it (they wanna use it for .. stupid friendster) they look at each other and seems to say like who wanna challenge..??? i said give easy on you , i took both of their hands and played thumb wrestling , i got it from craig in DYD.. and for some reasons it's like one of my favourite gambits , it works so well on girls.. no matter what age (tested on 17yrs , 12 yr olds... )
jesus , they were hooked , and i won them ...haha ,but i dunno what to do from next , WTF WTF social dynamics .. really kills me ,(i pushed 20 %... didnt know what to do , so it's like your in a battlefield , with no armor and the oppoent was shooting machine gun , you get hit and hit and hit but dunno what to do only 2 get hit) however while playing , a black dressed gals told us not to play so loudly... ............. i just said you heard her , shhh...
then after finish i was a little uncomfortable , i wanted to go into the 13 gambit.. that i learn from SD .. WTF my pua inside of me told me .. no your like a performing monkey now... get out of it , it's gonna blow.. (i feel i feel so afc) :((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((
Then i tried to off eg.. website , a lot of stuff , cuz i was insecure and didnt want them to see , especially this blog , cutiegirl started to talk about hey you watching porn ah?
i was like ya , so dont disturb me ^^, she said something like ya i watched porn too ,watched my father and mother fucking... then newgirl said ya (something to mimic her) i realise something , cutiegirl was having one of the highest social status in that particular group .. she somehow i can feel attraction for me .. oldcutegal was like ... .. ... ... ... i feel that in that particular group , newgal and cutiegal had something for me , i think cutiegal was taking me as a replacement for T , while newgal seeing cutiegal had higher social status , wanted to have me , ( am i smelling a rivalry???) while oldcutegal took my watch , and play with it ..
i panick (if u see me just now, you would see i am cool and stuff , lean back .. but fuck i am in internal chaos inside) Then we watch some lame ass , show brotherforsale.. i was like -_-.... then i was like.. okay i wanna see something else.. AHHH AFC OUT AFC OUTTT cutiegal , very energetic ( i love this type too , i love intellectual , but this time is good , but her weakness is her short attention span)..i notice she playing with my ear pieace (cheap cheap 1 dollar one) then in the midst of things , but i dont allow 2 budge so oldcutegal threw my watch , then look for a while and went off...
i think i know my mistake here , all this time oldcutegal wanted me to talk to her , i should have talk to her and give her "hope" so she would be locked in (cat string theory)
A little history background on oldcutegal and cutiegal , they both are like sisters , always together , so my guess is cutiegal gave the impression that she likes me , so oldcutegal saw the illusion of my seeding quality and wanted to find reasons for me to impress her , so that she can blow me off , or another thing i think is , she is cute so guys always hit on her (she's much more outgoing , than cutiegal , let's think more like a extrovert , and cutie gal introvert) but for some reason i didnt hit on her , she felt not validated .. so she isnt too happy
well ... oldcutegal ... was really cute and mature looking , reminds me of sec 3 gals but with a sec 1 twist ,
then since it was on friendster i told them , hey wanna watch some japanese stuff , so i didnt wait for their reply and type in japanese pranks...
well first one was boring , seeing old ppl sitting on seats and the seat just push out , then the poor ppl fly out into the snow , i see newgal was bored , i cut the thread and went on another with i wanted to let them watch human tetis (well as you know i dunno how to spell , so .. i typed in japanese pranks human and found it) experiment again
this time , when i was in church with my laptop (this laptop has been a partner in crime with me for sometime haha regardings to attraction)2 gals aroiund 19~ liked human tetis so much they laugh and stuff (then again i am a baka at social dynamics)
so i try , see if the age gap got anything 2 do with it... they ate it , but not strong... !!! sigh this gotta be one of the worse day of my life , but i learn a lot .. jesus it's hard , i wish one of you would help me by gimme tips i can try.. i looking around now , juggling with watching thepickupartist esp 4 and i notice something , all the girls are going in groups , it's like all the ugly girls one group , and all the cute gals one group.
So for me to be a real pua , i must master social dynamics.. now i wish i had mystery watching over and telling me what to do like in esp 4 .......... well now i failed to entertain them i feel a little like a loser , maybe it's due to my pua training that i dont feel it so badly like in afc where i would feel like hitting on the wall now..
i wanna enter the master pick up artist ... =( can someone take me out into the field and really show me how it works? i look like a blind pig going into a den of wolves... sigh... honestly i feel like giving up like 30% of the body is doing this , 80% is like nah, it's okay . next . i feel that a part of me wanna stick 2 the comfort zone that i should not spoil my chances with these gals
chances are like this
my afc which gotten like 30% of my body wants this
(dont screw up , take w/e you have , thouse gals are cute enough and live your life with it , it's okay to chase them , it's okay to perform for them , let's them be happy , and i get my pussy)
My pickup artist which is like 70% of my body have this
Scew it up , as much as you can , they are just testing grounds , if you cant fucking handle this how are you going to handles Hot babes and models , cute gals ??? it's okay to lose , them look at the bigger picture ... Yes your afc might say what if i cant find them or qualities like them , chances are you dont , you will either find much better or much worse , and if you fail . You gain EXPERIENCE , from experience , you screw up a bit more until you gotten a solid game. When you gotten a solid game , dont talk to them for 2 months or more (would be easy) then game them again .. SEE no losing , no biggie =]
i wanted to enroll into the army cuz i am bored in life and is pissed about how i lived with my body but now i realise , if u wanna change , you have to change yourself if not , no ammount of death or w/e can force you 2 change
Fuck i am so instant grafication , i want it now , i want it now.. but i know i have to delay my grafication for a better game...
haha that's if you dont understand i would try to explain , .. =] hopefully next time i would be able to type better and have a tighter game =]
This is the journey of TabbytheAfc to Tabbythepua
It's been a few months since i last blogged , my last blogged crash & burned :(
Didnt last for a long time, i hope this time i would record my journey from a afc to a pua.
Hmm i wont go into the long long long detail from how i came across these seduction materials but i will just start from today. Perhaps in my post you would find some of my past and stuff
so let's go
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It was werid yesterday 8/10/07, i wanted to go play the 5 dollars for the whole day package from 10-10
12 hours of gaming , but while playing at around 5 pm (i started at 12) i stopped... I felt odd and one part of me wanted to go sarging,Perhaps it's because i had awaken the pua in me after attending to skilldo's course, i remeber that day when i graduated or complete from skilldo's course i talk to him after class about his experience and some of my sticking points.
Haha skilldo is a great guy , =] to his gf : you found a great guy . He's a great teacher by the way
i could see that he's really retired from the dating world. Good luck buddy!!.. Anyway back to e story , i exited early , feeling odd and sick , one part of me wanted to go Sarging... Sigh, in the end thoughts enter in and out , i felt sick and just went home . I had approach anxiety...
I went to sleep and woke up 9.p.m i started to doubt myself if i would to be able to become what i should be a great pua...
i finally understood that being a pua would REALLY REALLY mean to meeting and dating , finding and attract different different type of girls...
I guess being a pua would really meant you must have a xing li zhun pei , preparation that , you are going to change your lifestyle.
No more sitting on the sofa watching tv and stuff.
I sacrifice a lot for this.
my 300 bucks for psp
Going to the library even tho i wanted to play just to dl seduction materials
lost 2 friends 0ne i told her i was becomming a pua , she took it in the wrong direction and think i am a player.. another , she's a emo basket , whenever i went out for "dates" with her , i ended up a emo papaya. so i cut her off .
Endless hours of sleep , pretending , talking to the air , practising my speech to ghost and trees and furniture (my mom thought i lost my mind )and stuff
And many more...
Fuck this man , i aint giving up , if life pushed me , i am pushing back .
Anyway that night i was like fuck it , i wanted to do the asking "50 girls would you like to fuck" routine, Just hopefully get slap and get over the fucking fucking fucking social fear i got..
i remeber 2 regrets since i started my pua journey.
one that super chio hot lava cute girl i wanted to open in the mrt ...that i am in when i went back home from after completing the seduction course
second the girl who sit beside me when i was going home feeling depressed . I could have fucking open both of them , and it's like god had given me the message and green light ...
Here's the thing , really skilldo is right , regrets are unliveable ...
And the only thing i can do now is .. hope they appear back into my life so i can redeem my sins
and proceed to pua heaven.
First chio lava girl , i thought of a new opener it's called the 2 finger why cant i kiss you opener, skilldo when i was talking to him , he taught me a chick crack so .. i wanted to use that. but i just didnt wanna go.,. i dunno why i was like i just wanna sit here.. i had guts trust me but just didnt wanna go
then i tried positive talking.. positive thoughts came to mind .... like hey your a pua trainee now , so act like one... didnt really helped... sigh, then my signal came.. , 2 indians at city hall , when the mrt was approaching , they both went and faced the wrong door (where it's not the exit) and i barely contain my laughter , i faced and see the girl , she was containing her laughter too , damn perfect chance , i blew it . When i finally woke up , like what am i doing i am a pua trainee. she's gone...
Damn i could have own her
2nd one was in the bus.... she sat beside me .., werid there is so many sits , sit beside me only. Then something rang like a alarm bell in my head . Aprroximity (w/e i dunno how to spell) , she prob see that i am a intrest 2 her... then i wanted to use the bloody opener as a social experiment.....
Nope , didnt dare 2 , and god send me a sign... the traffic was bloody long , suddenly when she comes in , i gotten a lot of traffic jams.. red lights and stuff...
JESUS CHRIST.... =( yes she's around 13 or 14 ... but still a new friend doesnt hurt...
i could see signs that she noticed me and she's bored. bored gals are just so easy 2 open..
i just look at her and was like... then look away , she look straight , Total afc ...
Thinking back of the 2 incident broke my little rafc heart... so that night.. i went out , i was having social fear , approach anxiety , regret and stuff.. so i was like... while walking in the night , i knew i had to do something if i wanan go ahead and level up.. HEre's how , i imagine right now i am wearing a regret and w/e bullshit suit , so i took it off mentally , and took on my experimental robe, (which was a kinda of a scientist one) So basically my mission is 2 use my new opener, and then kino , then ask would you like to fuck and get a slap. 50 slaps anyway.See if i would die , or girls's boobs will fire nuclear mission and burn me into eternal damnation or i would go to jail and have no girls and gay around for life.
so i went to the nearby 7 eleven , omg it's a guy , i dont gays around infact i am not fond of gays so i pass, i went to the next store hoping that it would be a gal
i entered in .. and i didnt saw anyone so i went to the fridge took a bottle of 1.5litre of carrot juice.At that moment i felt like a rabbit anyway not a wolf.. so i went to the counter and i saw this a old lady..
OKAY I DO NOT TARGET OLD LADIES , I JUST EXPERIMENTING . NOT LIKE OLD LADIES SITTING ON MY LAP IS MY THINGY..
lemme guess , out of my age , and looking werid .She's around 40?? maybe more? okay here's what happened... She was doing something , marking papers or something (it turns out later on to be her.. ordering papers). So i didnt know that, so i paid for my carrot juice.. And i didnt think of anything and i just said :
Tabby:Is it bored at night?
CheersAuntie : not really got things to do mah
Tabby :Okay auntie i am kinda bored so i wanna show you a magic trick.
CheersAuntie : (reaction was like .. should i or should not so i answer for her)
Tabby : hey auntie do this. .. put your hands together blah blah blah... (then i tried kino.. )
CheersAuntie backed out..
Poor Tabby pushed 20%..
CheersAuntie : sorry i got stuff 2 do .. (blew me off)
Ahhh... so i exit gracefully and said thanks bye. (i wish i knew seductionmagic that day, maybe i could cheer her up =] ) actually one of my mission statement was to make every gal i come across 2 feel good and leave her in a better condition that i found her. Inspiration? from joss a NLP seducer. So i left , my mind was like .. Okay so she doesnt wanna feel good , not my problems it's hers =P YAY a pua sentence
However let's looks at the facts , okay i failed horribly.. , i gotten a blew off , was rejected . And for some werid cosmic cosmo mooo moo reason it felt good. It's like i have so many BS thingy going into my mind , a rejection really helps. It's like what's worse than that? Is that the worse? LOL then i think i am ready to take over the world.
Btw.. she's a turn off , so .. i didnt wanna do the 50 dates , it's cool =] i congras myself after doing that , i threw in a mini party , nothing except a bottle of carrot juice.. Ahh my tail right now seems like a wolf .
However before i did that ... it's was tough , but right now i remeber a quote that is stuck with me i once read from a report from another PUA that reside in the USA.. that confidence means confidently expressing everything. so i confidently told my self you can say this with shit confidence , or real confidence , shit confidence means she would give you shit results , while real confidence means gimme real results..
so basic pickup theory , Real effort = Real results = real Experience = Real improvements
my mood went positive... So i wanted to do another crazy stunts.. that AFC me would never do
so i head my way to... the east coast park , was walking on this passway , and right infront of me , i saw my next victim..
No , it wasnt a dog , or a cat , or a girl... YEs.. Yess you guess it , a guy... A male jogger.
I dunno him , and he obviously dunno me, he was jogging suddenly all my fears went away and i just wanna make fun of him.. so i said the universal opener..
HI
Results was that , he stopped on his track (ooo my charming) and he was like O_O ??(who are you look)
Tabbytheevilpua: HI!!!
Poor victim: O_O... what you doing here
Tabbytheevilpua: Nah just a greetings :) , see ya. BYE.
Poor victim : Uhh.. okay..
of course i panicked a bit , but it's all good =]
In the past , if i were 2 do this , which i would not purposely i would start thinking , omg.. what will he think of me and stuff . But right now , i was like hmm.. okay =] let's continue , very very minimal of caring what the other guy is thinking.
I just gotta get rid of the programming that i had from birth .
HAHA i got the flow back =] well a part of it..
Now from a rabbit , tabby is turning into a cat =] a very vicious little cat...
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Right now i am watching the pick up artist espisode 3 from VH1.. and if that's not enough , i just watched the part mystery told that indian guy , the 2 finger stuff .. i was like shit , so this is the way 2 do it... a much better version of it =] cool i going to try it. Results from my last finger thingy that i created was ABSOLUTELY FAILURE , I TRIED IT WITH MY MOM TOO. it kinda failed , this time i going try mystery's =] oh while talking about my mom , i notice thouse who's like milf.. you know already mothers (i meant like 40+ or 50+) they aint so into chick crack as tested on my mom and that cheers auntie.
Today.. is 9/10/07 . Great day to be sarging, as mystery once said it aint natural to stay home.
Well didnt went to school today , came back from yesterday experiement at 3a.m.. so i couldnt wake up . I was thinking of storming the whole school .After all it's like my last year. Thinking of that , means that i am going army .. i took the medical test , and needa to wake awhile for the report . i am G6pD deficiency so i would have to wait for a while for the report to appear. =]
Well , since i wanted to go to school today , i slept wearing my school uniform, so when i woke up i was like .. in school uniform (DUH!!). I didnt know what to do today , so i decided to head for the library to catch up on the pickup artist series , hopefully it helps my game =p. It actually did , i now realise part of my game that i thought i had mastered . Mystery is one guy i would like to meet , and have him to coach me. You know i once wanted to be the world's greatest pickup artist too , but to me , me and mystery had a few similarities
1. We have the policy of not leaving anyone behind.
2. He loves to teach , i love too =]
3. I love to be the leader or i love to lead , same like mystery
4. I love girls , same like mystery
HAHA can tabby be the next mystery??? watch this blog 1 year later . Now back to my sticking point. Anyway watching the pickupartist really makes me feel motivated and shows me what can be done , it helps a lot , i now know roughly what would happen in the field =] so , more confidence right now.
By the way this was drafted more than twice the first draft was more unreadable.. now it's much more readable , so i kinda feel something werid , i dunno about you guys anyway i will continue.
I decided in the morning to do something something out of the norm. i was afraid of changing my wardrobe , and stuff , i really hate myself in the past , my nose look like jackie chan (some girl i date with told me tat ) i was really insecure , now i can say this . Hey are you jealous that i have a nose that attract girls? , oh dont be . Come kor kor give you hug hug kiss kiss , dont be jealous.
HAha i am laughing right now. I think back and i seen i came so far , Watching the pickup artist really reminds me of my past achievements. Now failures seemed funny HAHAH :)
This is who i am , a pickup artist . Yes a student pickup artist , a pickup artist means really a pickup using artistic approach . I found out that talk to a gal is an art , handling an objection is an art. kissing is an art. HAHAH i loved to be who i am a pickup artist.. so working towards attaining something called 545 , it's 5 sets getting all 5 sets numbers.
Hmm right now at 7.02 pm in the library , was thinking back about my past experience when i didnt know seduction material and stuff hahah was kinda fun. I used to go 1-1 with one of the most desirable gals in my class and i didnt count that as a date. (well i didnt know) about instant dates and stuff. Haha , she was the one gimme the shit test of the nose, i didnt take it too good tat day , but now it's like a breeze , it's amazing how much you achieve for stepping out of your comfort zone.
I remeber the day i was at SD's office outside , i was like.. should i go in ? or not, i am glad i opened the door. That's the day my afc died , and now i am a offically RAFC . However i wont call myself as a real pua unless i gotten the below.
1. my approaches is working at least 2 numbers from streets or library
2 numbers from friendster or internet
2.Kiss closing
3. F closing (hehehe the reward of a pua)
my approach is kinda good around 40% complete
my attraction is VERY BAD around 10% i always find myself stuck in the friends zone
my comfort is lol very good around 70% goodness juice (or else how i end in FZ?)
Seduction ? :P not gonna tell ya.. hhahaha
Social dynamics 0 %!!! biggest sticking point
moving targets should be good , cuz i done survying before :) and did moving target Never tried
my sticking point? understanding attraction .. HHEHE :) getting that , it's all a breeze , hey any kor kor wanna teach me? like really go in the field and really show me and teach me??. Cuz for me i learn by doing , so if u tell me i wont really understand it , i will only know it. anyway today something happened to me , i found another sticking point SOCIAL DYNAMICS. omg i cant handle today .. here's what happen..
i am like joe D =p cant really build attraction and fear of physical intimacy but the physical intimacy part is much more smoother out ,the more serious my sticking point is .. social dynamics.
i got this problem of dressing last time i would be very self-conscious about my clothing like is this okay? i would ask my bro is this okay? is this jell okay? wax? and i waxing good? how's my hair? now i know it doesnt matter , it's not the looks. If you do that , it means for you your looks is your value which is not. so what if u got accident , so u gonna quit the dating game for good? just because like a few strings of your hair is burn off? right now i understand a little about social value , what is value how value feels like . I feel confident , you cant get self -esteem from anywhere only from pushing out of your comfort-zone. i felt like shit in the morning , now i feel like a tiger.
I finally understand one thing , standing from a rafc turnning pua point of view , i was going for perfection. Well as juggler says there's one thing about perfectionist , they dont do anything.
It's okay to be inperfect , infact it's good to be inperfect , you could use it for conversation and for gals to see that u use something that could be insecure as your conversation asking for advice is pure sweet confidence in action :).
okay sorry i side track , back to the story.
I wear a school uniform and a sandal and took my laptop , and i took bus ** to a library. In the bus i saw this group of girls.. from my school wearing school uniform , i took a closer look and it's the gals that i know (sec 1 :) yummy) from a friend T , i was in the bus like oh.. oh .. oh ..shit.
oh yea in the bus there are GALS ALL OVER, it's like when i started this journey seriously gals being to show up. It's mind over matter , i know i am ready however i was feeling uneasy
now i know why , i didnt have my routine , attraction material right (didnt do them just went library) oh how? i think i am going to die by the fire. i need to go home and draft out a complete game by tonight , and start gaming.. add more info tml ;)
another good skill to have is to control your emotion , especially approach anxiety. I worked before and gotten the title of the best surveyer . Gotten 100 ++ number in a day 4 hours. So i had something inside of me. =). A good thinking to have is NEVER EVER TRUST YOUR IMAGINATION. Yes never trust your imagination if you wanna go in field. Have this belief of , What ever i think right now , will most likely not happen , the field is unexpected and versatile.Anything could go wrong and will go wrong for you. So all i can do is to take the problems on , when it comes not before it comes.
i went library , hopefully they were in first (so i can try an opener which is like smile at them and not saying a word) why i did this ,is because #1 i know them , #2 they know me #3 i dont wanna lose value and just trying a new opener. so typing here i was watching the pickup artist 7 , and they said something which is true i am afraid of success . i remeber once i didnt pull the trigger =] and suck me back to LJBF zone.. hahaha but is okay , at least i learned something right?
hah so true barriers are meant to be broken , way to go joe.
so i was sitting there , nope didnt see them , so i proceed to prepare my stuff on my computer and stuff , then they came from the elevator. 4 girls , 1 fat , 3 chio cute and ready to be slaughted by the great tabby. Hey you must be thinking , thouse were T's girls but T had a gf and told me tat he didnt want to be too attached to them. So it's a fair game, T is a friend of mine , who is 1 year younger than me , but had dating experiences. He's a natural he using playfulness as a tatic for attraction. And guess what , one of them got hooked :) she has a crush with T.
Now the fat one is called Fgal , then newgal and cutiegal and cutiegal2
A brief history they are all friends , i do not know very well with Fgal and newgal , i went for a mini date before with cutiegal and cutiegal2 how it happened? i went to a arcade and saw them , then i was like hey , your t's friend , they were like yea. We played and we won a soft toy (on the crane thingy) should have used the fate -etching , but anyway didnt know about seduction stuff anyway. :) , i gave it 2 cutiegal
They were out , one of them saw me. it was cutiegal2, she point out at me like a honey to a bee
They buzz into my face in less than a second. My social value went to the top. Fgal doesnt seem too happy , they fly and touches my computer and mouse then this happened i had a panick attack , i didnt let them touch my computer
i just set up my computer (was at the login page) i logged in and they took my mouse and play i was like ahhh annoying... i logged in and in my front page there's this cute little dota panda verson ,
they were like .. ee act cute, i replied , it is cute ... i tried some stuff like , what you all doing here.. one major thing i did was , i told them 2 go do their stuff and not disturb me the Cutiegal always disturbing me saying wanted to see me play wanted to see me play... they sticked around... i kept doing that ( i was like horrrr... the heavens aparted and my pua is out) is it the pua out?? no i screwed up , i screwed up in the social dynamics... omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg...when i got the 4 girls hooked , The fat one came and isnt too happy about it and cock block me ... .!! i gotta get the situation back.. be cool about it tabby .. be cool...
i tried to counter with the bloody finger magic stuff , so i told them when they are about to leave, hey wanna see a magic??(i should have fucking noT!! )
they would like yea yea ( i could see they intrested , the CB went off , was pissed and wanted me to fail . i could see tat , so as a pua you can see , you must must handle social pressure , especially if they would like be kids) i tried the finger stuff on a girl who i not really know... haha FaTCB tried to make me fail .. hahahah , hey i just click back and watched the pickup artist , and i realise something , wow my game just gone up from realising this. THe cat sting theory , i didnt do that , i was concentrating on this one girl i dunno , (from the 5 , 3 of them tried , cutiegal2 was thinking where the magic is , the Newgal was tat girl who i focus on who's in front of me , the cutiegal was beside me , .. i know the cutiegal one better
i made a mistake actually 3
1. I should have focus on more on the cutiegal one who i know better , i just showed my intent... shit..
2. when i make one of them have the position , i should have gone to another one... , like throwing a ball , and let the cat see .. increases my value
3.. i should not have ask them all 2 try , maybe only 1... .......damn
But the result ... The newgal who i focus the most , i know she was attracted to me , i just demostrated my seeding/pre-selection quality , by having her peers comming to me and stuff.
i think that , at that moment i was the highest in value in that group , she was one of the lowest value in the group , she had to capture my attention to validate herself and increase her value. (do you know how i know? , before the magic thingy , i didnt cared about her when she keep saying.. say bye leh , say bye , it's like she wanted to say me to notice her , i said bye quickly and turned Yes i did right , make her work 4 it. ) but after my magic , i focus too much on her , damn.....
So FatCB went back , all 4 girls saw tat fatcb wasnt very happy , so they reluctenly go. except cutegirl, she wanted 2 stay but i told her , i nid to play so i go .. haha oldcutegal played with my mouse , like shaking it real hard , i touch my mousepad trying to get my control back..
seriously social dynamics i dont really understand , i my niche is on one 2 one.. more than one i will panick , but this time btr , when i was an afc , i would like WTF WTF WTF , but it's much better..
anyway.. i gotten peace and quiet. cutiegal came back . Here's some insider talk ...
she beside me (reminds me of a cat , i really like this cutiegal ... she is like your regular party gal , she cant stand intellectual stuff rather like to play around... really really cute girl.. ooo i wanna her to be my gf already.. anyway) you know how my school girl sit?? they kinda squat , so one fist blocking the skirt , cant lemme see the panties , anyway if she lemme see the panties i got something to counter.. haha
so here it goes
Tabby: Hey what you doing here?
Tabby : haha trying to know T's info right? (she has a crush with T but T had gf liao)
Cutiegal : T got TGF liao...
Tabby: well ppl do change one.
Cutiegal: (sad voice) ppl dont..
Tabby: If you trying to get more info with T , i charge 50 bucks for a question
Cutiegal laughed
sob.. after typing this , life threw something at me 3 gals came... !!!!!!!!!!!!!!
cutiegal , newgal and oldcutegal came.. fuck..i wasnt prepared for it so i had to cancel this draft , luckily i did so , i think they looked a bit , hopefully they dunno the blog of this site
well... i think skilldo would say something , always be prepared... damn this is ... one of the hardest part of a pua... you have no skills and you are forced into a situation where you cant do any fucking thing .
Sob sob , they wanted 2 play the computer , i didnt let them ... i didnt wanna jump into their hoops and i was watching something anyway , they disturb me so i told them 2 go away i tried to save the situation by telling them , hey let's make a deal , if you can win me in thumb wrestling i would let you use it (they wanna use it for .. stupid friendster) they look at each other and seems to say like who wanna challenge..??? i said give easy on you , i took both of their hands and played thumb wrestling , i got it from craig in DYD.. and for some reasons it's like one of my favourite gambits , it works so well on girls.. no matter what age (tested on 17yrs , 12 yr olds... )
jesus , they were hooked , and i won them ...haha ,but i dunno what to do from next , WTF WTF social dynamics .. really kills me ,(i pushed 20 %... didnt know what to do , so it's like your in a battlefield , with no armor and the oppoent was shooting machine gun , you get hit and hit and hit but dunno what to do only 2 get hit) however while playing , a black dressed gals told us not to play so loudly... ............. i just said you heard her , shhh...
then after finish i was a little uncomfortable , i wanted to go into the 13 gambit.. that i learn from SD .. WTF my pua inside of me told me .. no your like a performing monkey now... get out of it , it's gonna blow.. (i feel i feel so afc) :((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((
Then i tried to off eg.. website , a lot of stuff , cuz i was insecure and didnt want them to see , especially this blog , cutiegirl started to talk about hey you watching porn ah?
i was like ya , so dont disturb me ^^, she said something like ya i watched porn too ,watched my father and mother fucking... then newgirl said ya (something to mimic her) i realise something , cutiegirl was having one of the highest social status in that particular group .. she somehow i can feel attraction for me .. oldcutegal was like ... .. ... ... ... i feel that in that particular group , newgal and cutiegal had something for me , i think cutiegal was taking me as a replacement for T , while newgal seeing cutiegal had higher social status , wanted to have me , ( am i smelling a rivalry???) while oldcutegal took my watch , and play with it ..
i panick (if u see me just now, you would see i am cool and stuff , lean back .. but fuck i am in internal chaos inside) Then we watch some lame ass , show brotherforsale.. i was like -_-.... then i was like.. okay i wanna see something else.. AHHH AFC OUT AFC OUTTT cutiegal , very energetic ( i love this type too , i love intellectual , but this time is good , but her weakness is her short attention span)..i notice she playing with my ear pieace (cheap cheap 1 dollar one) then in the midst of things , but i dont allow 2 budge so oldcutegal threw my watch , then look for a while and went off...
i think i know my mistake here , all this time oldcutegal wanted me to talk to her , i should have talk to her and give her "hope" so she would be locked in (cat string theory)
A little history background on oldcutegal and cutiegal , they both are like sisters , always together , so my guess is cutiegal gave the impression that she likes me , so oldcutegal saw the illusion of my seeding quality and wanted to find reasons for me to impress her , so that she can blow me off , or another thing i think is , she is cute so guys always hit on her (she's much more outgoing , than cutiegal , let's think more like a extrovert , and cutie gal introvert) but for some reason i didnt hit on her , she felt not validated .. so she isnt too happy
well ... oldcutegal ... was really cute and mature looking , reminds me of sec 3 gals but with a sec 1 twist ,
then since it was on friendster i told them , hey wanna watch some japanese stuff , so i didnt wait for their reply and type in japanese pranks...
well first one was boring , seeing old ppl sitting on seats and the seat just push out , then the poor ppl fly out into the snow , i see newgal was bored , i cut the thread and went on another with i wanted to let them watch human tetis (well as you know i dunno how to spell , so .. i typed in japanese pranks human and found it) experiment again
this time , when i was in church with my laptop (this laptop has been a partner in crime with me for sometime haha regardings to attraction)2 gals aroiund 19~ liked human tetis so much they laugh and stuff (then again i am a baka at social dynamics)
so i try , see if the age gap got anything 2 do with it... they ate it , but not strong... !!! sigh this gotta be one of the worse day of my life , but i learn a lot .. jesus it's hard , i wish one of you would help me by gimme tips i can try.. i looking around now , juggling with watching thepickupartist esp 4 and i notice something , all the girls are going in groups , it's like all the ugly girls one group , and all the cute gals one group.
So for me to be a real pua , i must master social dynamics.. now i wish i had mystery watching over and telling me what to do like in esp 4 .......... well now i failed to entertain them i feel a little like a loser , maybe it's due to my pua training that i dont feel it so badly like in afc where i would feel like hitting on the wall now..
i wanna enter the master pick up artist ... =( can someone take me out into the field and really show me how it works? i look like a blind pig going into a den of wolves... sigh... honestly i feel like giving up like 30% of the body is doing this , 80% is like nah, it's okay . next . i feel that a part of me wanna stick 2 the comfort zone that i should not spoil my chances with these gals
chances are like this
my afc which gotten like 30% of my body wants this
(dont screw up , take w/e you have , thouse gals are cute enough and live your life with it , it's okay to chase them , it's okay to perform for them , let's them be happy , and i get my pussy)
My pickup artist which is like 70% of my body have this
Scew it up , as much as you can , they are just testing grounds , if you cant fucking handle this how are you going to handles Hot babes and models , cute gals ??? it's okay to lose , them look at the bigger picture ... Yes your afc might say what if i cant find them or qualities like them , chances are you dont , you will either find much better or much worse , and if you fail . You gain EXPERIENCE , from experience , you screw up a bit more until you gotten a solid game. When you gotten a solid game , dont talk to them for 2 months or more (would be easy) then game them again .. SEE no losing , no biggie =]
i wanted to enroll into the army cuz i am bored in life and is pissed about how i lived with my body but now i realise , if u wanna change , you have to change yourself if not , no ammount of death or w/e can force you 2 change
Fuck i am so instant grafication , i want it now , i want it now.. but i know i have to delay my grafication for a better game...
haha that's if you dont understand i would try to explain , .. =] hopefully next time i would be able to type better and have a tighter game =]
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