sat 20 october 2007

Today was a blast , today i decided to try "living in the moment" that i learned recently from the movie the peaceful warrior.And all i can say was wow , it work :) so well.

I decided to change my profile , into something better than a usual t-shirt and jeans (altho i look good in thouse too ;). i wore something that i didnt really like, a black shirt with a huge skull and a skull on my left chest. And added with a sharktooth fossil necklace , it's was good to go :). I didnt style my hair because i didnt really had a style to begin with so i bathed twice with a palmolive that purple coloured bottle (it's for relaxation).Like a warrior , i was making mental preparation to clear any rubbish from my mind , by concentrating the sound of the water splashing on my body. suddenly i become aware of a lot of things , everything seemed more real.
I knew i was ready.

palmolive : http://www.colgate.com.my/app/Colgate/MY/PC/Products/BodyWash/pdps/AromaTherapyAntiStress.cvsp

i brought it at a local 7-eleven shop..

i went to the direction of my training location , the church.!!
I didnt think of anything except concentrating on whatever i was doing in the moment , be it walking or looking . And being aware of my body language , being aware of my breathe , being aware of whatever was near and far of me.

I reached the gate of my church , a guy opened it up for me , like a reflex , i said hey thx dude and looked at him right in the eye , patting him on the shoulder (i always have this ocean eleven smile on my face , i call it the evil smile) didnt know why and didnt care i just put the smile on my face , making sure it wont go away.

As i was walking towards the church , i was like wow , i didnt thought of anything and i did it , i felt so alpha. And proceed to walk to church , my church is in the 12 level so i had to take a bubble lift to get up there . I went in and that guy went in after me , some how he started talking asking if i was first time in church blah blah blah. I was like ZZzz (now i know the reason why never go to comfort building question when u meet someone)... i looked into the surrounding of the lift , there are mirrors all over , so i could see my side , back and front
i was like .. woah i didnt know i was kinda good looking at the side too :). After giving a pad on the back , i went out into the lift. Met my friend and the service started........

After the service , IT'S TRAINING TIME........WOOOOOOOAAAAAHHHHHH
.... (one moment i go youtube and listen to sunday morning by marroon 5)....

of course , you must be wondering , does tabby have thoughts , like what to do next , what am i going to do , ? yes of course they crop up once in a while , but all you have to do is let them pass like fleeting cloud.Because thoughts are funny thing , you resist them , they stay , if u let them pass by your mind they just pass by . I think it's kinda like respect , if you respect them let them stay in your mind without resistance they just pass by. (reminds me of respecting the guys first if there are guys in the set)

before i get into the best part , all i wanna tell you is i really really love you guys for reading my journey to becoming a pua :). you guys are great , i dunno you from real life but just by reading my blog , you had given me a sense of responsibility to post something great here , so thx a lot my fellow readers and god bless ya.

After the service , everyone was like , what are you going to do ? i decided to play pool , i saw this guy , immediately i got a gut level respond he's a friendly , so i thought ya , ask him to play.

Tabby : hey dude =)
Dude: yea , hi :) (wow i was right , how do i know that?)
Tabby : hey , wanna play pool ? i kinda need a person to play with me
Dude: uh...
(somehow i know he' thinking if he met me from somewhere so i didnt think and shot another reflex)
Tabby: Haha , dont worry about it , let's play and we'll know each other along the way
Dude : ahh , i wanna play but i need to find my friends
Tabby : yeah , sure no problem :) , hey see ya around

so i went around asking my peers , they were like uhh.. i dun wanna play (but i got a feeling , they are finding other ppl permission or something or they are afraid to be apart from the group ,sounds crazy but when i went up (2nd level of my church) and played a foot ball table game (where you hold the stick and use the players on the stick to hit the ball ) i saw them sitting there , all 4 of them without moving , like a bunch of sheep.... -_-....... sometimes as a wolf , you see your pastself in them .

so i was playing and k came , asked me if i could join , i was like yea. Let's play , so me and k vs 2 kids. Of course me and k win :) . Then 3 people came , one gal (i think she's around my age) and a kiddy gal and a male kid , they were looking at the game and talking about it

Somehow without knowing how , i feel that she's doing a AI , AI means approach invitation , when a gal likes you , she would be around you and stuff. So like a reflex

Tabby : hey wanna play a game (facing them briefly ,then turned back to my game)
Gal : ya.. i want.. i want
Tabby : okay okay , after this game =)

Game's finish , so k want to go down and join our cell group . But i didnt want because i ate , so i told him err , maybe ltr

And continue with the game playing with the kids on the other team , me and the gal on my team. So we played , she keep kinoing me.. like asking me to hi 5 and stuff , after the game . k wanted me to go down (not sure why, i am smelling some problem here , when i figure out i post it.) so i was going down and the gal said , what's your name?

and i said , i tell you when i see you.
and went down, not telling my name so easy , hey we are kinda of a stranger remember ;), i give you good time , and i am gone . I going to experiment , seems like this is a style i would love. If a gal ask me what's my name , i gonna say i cant say , if she ask what i do , i do what i do , best or i work in secret , i talk in shadow and i cant tell you.

I love to make gals having mystery , i think i going to experiment this , i got the idea from man in black II that i just watch , yea it's like my 3rd time watching but right now i understand the idea behind Gals love the unknown and the mystery. i gonna make them guess , haha :) .

funny how people tell you gals love to figure out things , and you just discard it aside . When your game drops to the rock , you decided to try new stuff , and when you stumble into old stuff , you start to realise the wisdom behind it, That's why always go back to basics.

i went down , and sat with my group , felt bored , i was there thinking why should i be a sheep i wanna be up there playing ball, hmm , i decided to have a plate of chicken rice ,since i am here . Might as well do something good.i went and lead on the counter of the chicken rice stall , saw 2 gals there chatting , then they came closer ... closer and closer , i opened them by saying this.
Hey i didnt know what to eat , what ya eating? give some idea. (true anyway) then i chat and played with them , that gal tried to kino me and kick me on the leg... but i didnt kino (WHY DID I NOT??) okay lesson learned , that gal's like 14 years old , oohhh cute too :) but her friend didnt seem happy or anything . She's cute too but kinda shy type .hmm i just need to improve my game to include social dynamics.Didnt know what to do with the poor gal , somebody help me. The gal asked me if i were in the church , i didnt answer.

She said she's in c zone , i joked like i am in F zone (which ironicly opened up on the same day.) then a handsome dude came pass by me , she turned and ask the guy , if he knows me . I quickly kino by putting my arms on the guy and say , nope he dunno me , the poor guy is like HUH? what's happening .. Haha was fun (actually that guy is my cell - leader)

seems like there's new members =) both are younger than me 2 years.
One new gal , and one new guy, i joked with them and used one of style's opener , the jealous galfriend. I think i am incongruent that's why one of the gal asked did this really happened?. Hmm i need to try a couple of times. And see what's going on or is this a shit test ;)

After eating i went to macdonal , i recieve an sms from a fellow cell mate of mine , cum skool mate Your amazing.. blah blah blah (deleted the sms so cant remeber the full detail)


i guess i establish some status in the group :)