First pua title

Hey guys out there , i am tabbythepua

This is the journey of TabbytheAfc to Tabbythepua

It's been a few months since i last blogged , my last blogged crash & burned :(
Didnt last for a long time, i hope this time i would record my journey from a afc to a pua.

Hmm i wont go into the long long long detail from how i came across these seduction materials but i will just start from today. Perhaps in my post you would find some of my past and stuff

so let's go

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It was werid yesterday 8/10/07, i wanted to go play the 5 dollars for the whole day package from 10-10
12 hours of gaming , but while playing at around 5 pm (i started at 12) i stopped... I felt odd and one part of me wanted to go sarging,Perhaps it's because i had awaken the pua in me after attending to skilldo's course, i remeber that day when i graduated or complete from skilldo's course i talk to him after class about his experience and some of my sticking points.

Haha skilldo is a great guy , =] to his gf : you found a great guy . He's a great teacher by the way
i could see that he's really retired from the dating world. Good luck buddy!!.. Anyway back to e story , i exited early , feeling odd and sick , one part of me wanted to go Sarging... Sigh, in the end thoughts enter in and out , i felt sick and just went home . I had approach anxiety...

I went to sleep and woke up 9.p.m i started to doubt myself if i would to be able to become what i should be a great pua...

i finally understood that being a pua would REALLY REALLY mean to meeting and dating , finding and attract different different type of girls...

I guess being a pua would really meant you must have a xing li zhun pei , preparation that , you are going to change your lifestyle.

No more sitting on the sofa watching tv and stuff.

I sacrifice a lot for this.

my 300 bucks for psp
Going to the library even tho i wanted to play just to dl seduction materials
lost 2 friends 0ne i told her i was becomming a pua , she took it in the wrong direction and think i am a player.. another , she's a emo basket , whenever i went out for "dates" with her , i ended up a emo papaya. so i cut her off .
Endless hours of sleep , pretending , talking to the air , practising my speech to ghost and trees and furniture (my mom thought i lost my mind )and stuff

And many more...

Fuck this man , i aint giving up , if life pushed me , i am pushing back .

Anyway that night i was like fuck it , i wanted to do the asking "50 girls would you like to fuck" routine, Just hopefully get slap and get over the fucking fucking fucking social fear i got..

i remeber 2 regrets since i started my pua journey.

one that super chio hot lava cute girl i wanted to open in the mrt ...that i am in when i went back home from after completing the seduction course

second the girl who sit beside me when i was going home feeling depressed . I could have fucking open both of them , and it's like god had given me the message and green light ...


Here's the thing , really skilldo is right , regrets are unliveable ...
And the only thing i can do now is .. hope they appear back into my life so i can redeem my sins
and proceed to pua heaven.

First chio lava girl , i thought of a new opener it's called the 2 finger why cant i kiss you opener, skilldo when i was talking to him , he taught me a chick crack so .. i wanted to use that. but i just didnt wanna go.,. i dunno why i was like i just wanna sit here.. i had guts trust me but just didnt wanna go
then i tried positive talking.. positive thoughts came to mind .... like hey your a pua trainee now , so act like one... didnt really helped... sigh, then my signal came.. , 2 indians at city hall , when the mrt was approaching , they both went and faced the wrong door (where it's not the exit) and i barely contain my laughter , i faced and see the girl , she was containing her laughter too , damn perfect chance , i blew it . When i finally woke up , like what am i doing i am a pua trainee. she's gone...

Damn i could have own her

2nd one was in the bus.... she sat beside me .., werid there is so many sits , sit beside me only. Then something rang like a alarm bell in my head . Aprroximity (w/e i dunno how to spell) , she prob see that i am a intrest 2 her... then i wanted to use the bloody opener as a social experiment.....
Nope , didnt dare 2 , and god send me a sign... the traffic was bloody long , suddenly when she comes in , i gotten a lot of traffic jams.. red lights and stuff...

JESUS CHRIST.... =( yes she's around 13 or 14 ... but still a new friend doesnt hurt...
i could see signs that she noticed me and she's bored. bored gals are just so easy 2 open..
i just look at her and was like... then look away , she look straight , Total afc ...

Thinking back of the 2 incident broke my little rafc heart... so that night.. i went out , i was having social fear , approach anxiety , regret and stuff.. so i was like... while walking in the night , i knew i had to do something if i wanan go ahead and level up.. HEre's how , i imagine right now i am wearing a regret and w/e bullshit suit , so i took it off mentally , and took on my experimental robe, (which was a kinda of a scientist one) So basically my mission is 2 use my new opener, and then kino , then ask would you like to fuck and get a slap. 50 slaps anyway.See if i would die , or girls's boobs will fire nuclear mission and burn me into eternal damnation or i would go to jail and have no girls and gay around for life.

so i went to the nearby 7 eleven , omg it's a guy , i dont gays around infact i am not fond of gays so i pass, i went to the next store hoping that it would be a gal

i entered in .. and i didnt saw anyone so i went to the fridge took a bottle of 1.5litre of carrot juice.At that moment i felt like a rabbit anyway not a wolf.. so i went to the counter and i saw this a old lady..

OKAY I DO NOT TARGET OLD LADIES , I JUST EXPERIMENTING . NOT LIKE OLD LADIES SITTING ON MY LAP IS MY THINGY..

lemme guess , out of my age , and looking werid .She's around 40?? maybe more? okay here's what happened... She was doing something , marking papers or something (it turns out later on to be her.. ordering papers). So i didnt know that, so i paid for my carrot juice.. And i didnt think of anything and i just said :

Tabby:Is it bored at night?
CheersAuntie : not really got things to do mah
Tabby :Okay auntie i am kinda bored so i wanna show you a magic trick.
CheersAuntie : (reaction was like .. should i or should not so i answer for her)
Tabby : hey auntie do this. .. put your hands together blah blah blah... (then i tried kino.. )
CheersAuntie backed out..
Poor Tabby pushed 20%..
CheersAuntie : sorry i got stuff 2 do .. (blew me off)

Ahhh... so i exit gracefully and said thanks bye. (i wish i knew seductionmagic that day, maybe i could cheer her up =] ) actually one of my mission statement was to make every gal i come across 2 feel good and leave her in a better condition that i found her. Inspiration? from joss a NLP seducer. So i left , my mind was like .. Okay so she doesnt wanna feel good , not my problems it's hers =P YAY a pua sentence

However let's looks at the facts , okay i failed horribly.. , i gotten a blew off , was rejected . And for some werid cosmic cosmo mooo moo reason it felt good. It's like i have so many BS thingy going into my mind , a rejection really helps. It's like what's worse than that? Is that the worse? LOL then i think i am ready to take over the world.

Btw.. she's a turn off , so .. i didnt wanna do the 50 dates , it's cool =] i congras myself after doing that , i threw in a mini party , nothing except a bottle of carrot juice.. Ahh my tail right now seems like a wolf .

However before i did that ... it's was tough , but right now i remeber a quote that is stuck with me i once read from a report from another PUA that reside in the USA.. that confidence means confidently expressing everything. so i confidently told my self you can say this with shit confidence , or real confidence , shit confidence means she would give you shit results , while real confidence means gimme real results..

so basic pickup theory , Real effort = Real results = real Experience = Real improvements

my mood went positive... So i wanted to do another crazy stunts.. that AFC me would never do

so i head my way to... the east coast park , was walking on this passway , and right infront of me , i saw my next victim..

No , it wasnt a dog , or a cat , or a girl... YEs.. Yess you guess it , a guy... A male jogger.
I dunno him , and he obviously dunno me, he was jogging suddenly all my fears went away and i just wanna make fun of him.. so i said the universal opener..

HI

Results was that , he stopped on his track (ooo my charming) and he was like O_O ??(who are you look)

Tabbytheevilpua: HI!!!
Poor victim: O_O... what you doing here
Tabbytheevilpua: Nah just a greetings :) , see ya. BYE.
Poor victim : Uhh.. okay..

of course i panicked a bit , but it's all good =]

In the past , if i were 2 do this , which i would not purposely i would start thinking , omg.. what will he think of me and stuff . But right now , i was like hmm.. okay =] let's continue , very very minimal of caring what the other guy is thinking.

I just gotta get rid of the programming that i had from birth .

HAHA i got the flow back =] well a part of it..

Now from a rabbit , tabby is turning into a cat =] a very vicious little cat...
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Right now i am watching the pick up artist espisode 3 from VH1.. and if that's not enough , i just watched the part mystery told that indian guy , the 2 finger stuff .. i was like shit , so this is the way 2 do it... a much better version of it =] cool i going to try it. Results from my last finger thingy that i created was ABSOLUTELY FAILURE , I TRIED IT WITH MY MOM TOO. it kinda failed , this time i going try mystery's =] oh while talking about my mom , i notice thouse who's like milf.. you know already mothers (i meant like 40+ or 50+) they aint so into chick crack as tested on my mom and that cheers auntie.

Today.. is 9/10/07 . Great day to be sarging, as mystery once said it aint natural to stay home.
Well didnt went to school today , came back from yesterday experiement at 3a.m.. so i couldnt wake up . I was thinking of storming the whole school .After all it's like my last year. Thinking of that , means that i am going army .. i took the medical test , and needa to wake awhile for the report . i am G6pD deficiency so i would have to wait for a while for the report to appear. =]

Well , since i wanted to go to school today , i slept wearing my school uniform, so when i woke up i was like .. in school uniform (DUH!!). I didnt know what to do today , so i decided to head for the library to catch up on the pickup artist series , hopefully it helps my game =p. It actually did , i now realise part of my game that i thought i had mastered . Mystery is one guy i would like to meet , and have him to coach me. You know i once wanted to be the world's greatest pickup artist too , but to me , me and mystery had a few similarities

1. We have the policy of not leaving anyone behind.
2. He loves to teach , i love too =]
3. I love to be the leader or i love to lead , same like mystery
4. I love girls , same like mystery

HAHA can tabby be the next mystery??? watch this blog 1 year later . Now back to my sticking point. Anyway watching the pickupartist really makes me feel motivated and shows me what can be done , it helps a lot , i now know roughly what would happen in the field =] so , more confidence right now.

By the way this was drafted more than twice the first draft was more unreadable.. now it's much more readable , so i kinda feel something werid , i dunno about you guys anyway i will continue.

I decided in the morning to do something something out of the norm. i was afraid of changing my wardrobe , and stuff , i really hate myself in the past , my nose look like jackie chan (some girl i date with told me tat ) i was really insecure , now i can say this . Hey are you jealous that i have a nose that attract girls? , oh dont be . Come kor kor give you hug hug kiss kiss , dont be jealous.
HAha i am laughing right now. I think back and i seen i came so far , Watching the pickup artist really reminds me of my past achievements. Now failures seemed funny HAHAH :)

This is who i am , a pickup artist . Yes a student pickup artist , a pickup artist means really a pickup using artistic approach . I found out that talk to a gal is an art , handling an objection is an art. kissing is an art. HAHAH i loved to be who i am a pickup artist.. so working towards attaining something called 545 , it's 5 sets getting all 5 sets numbers.

Hmm right now at 7.02 pm in the library , was thinking back about my past experience when i didnt know seduction material and stuff hahah was kinda fun. I used to go 1-1 with one of the most desirable gals in my class and i didnt count that as a date. (well i didnt know) about instant dates and stuff. Haha , she was the one gimme the shit test of the nose, i didnt take it too good tat day , but now it's like a breeze , it's amazing how much you achieve for stepping out of your comfort zone.

I remeber the day i was at SD's office outside , i was like.. should i go in ? or not, i am glad i opened the door. That's the day my afc died , and now i am a offically RAFC . However i wont call myself as a real pua unless i gotten the below.

1. my approaches is working at least 2 numbers from streets or library
2 numbers from friendster or internet
2.Kiss closing
3. F closing (hehehe the reward of a pua)

my approach is kinda good around 40% complete
my attraction is VERY BAD around 10% i always find myself stuck in the friends zone
my comfort is lol very good around 70% goodness juice (or else how i end in FZ?)
Seduction ? :P not gonna tell ya.. hhahaha
Social dynamics 0 %!!! biggest sticking point
moving targets should be good , cuz i done survying before :) and did moving target Never tried

my sticking point? understanding attraction .. HHEHE :) getting that , it's all a breeze , hey any kor kor wanna teach me? like really go in the field and really show me and teach me??. Cuz for me i learn by doing , so if u tell me i wont really understand it , i will only know it. anyway today something happened to me , i found another sticking point SOCIAL DYNAMICS. omg i cant handle today .. here's what happen..

i am like joe D =p cant really build attraction and fear of physical intimacy but the physical intimacy part is much more smoother out ,the more serious my sticking point is .. social dynamics.

i got this problem of dressing last time i would be very self-conscious about my clothing like is this okay? i would ask my bro is this okay? is this jell okay? wax? and i waxing good? how's my hair? now i know it doesnt matter , it's not the looks. If you do that , it means for you your looks is your value which is not. so what if u got accident , so u gonna quit the dating game for good? just because like a few strings of your hair is burn off? right now i understand a little about social value , what is value how value feels like . I feel confident , you cant get self -esteem from anywhere only from pushing out of your comfort-zone. i felt like shit in the morning , now i feel like a tiger.

I finally understand one thing , standing from a rafc turnning pua point of view , i was going for perfection. Well as juggler says there's one thing about perfectionist , they dont do anything.
It's okay to be inperfect , infact it's good to be inperfect , you could use it for conversation and for gals to see that u use something that could be insecure as your conversation asking for advice is pure sweet confidence in action :).

okay sorry i side track , back to the story.

I wear a school uniform and a sandal and took my laptop , and i took bus ** to a library. In the bus i saw this group of girls.. from my school wearing school uniform , i took a closer look and it's the gals that i know (sec 1 :) yummy) from a friend T , i was in the bus like oh.. oh .. oh ..shit.
oh yea in the bus there are GALS ALL OVER, it's like when i started this journey seriously gals being to show up. It's mind over matter , i know i am ready however i was feeling uneasy

now i know why , i didnt have my routine , attraction material right (didnt do them just went library) oh how? i think i am going to die by the fire. i need to go home and draft out a complete game by tonight , and start gaming.. add more info tml ;)

another good skill to have is to control your emotion , especially approach anxiety. I worked before and gotten the title of the best surveyer . Gotten 100 ++ number in a day 4 hours. So i had something inside of me. =). A good thinking to have is NEVER EVER TRUST YOUR IMAGINATION. Yes never trust your imagination if you wanna go in field. Have this belief of , What ever i think right now , will most likely not happen , the field is unexpected and versatile.Anything could go wrong and will go wrong for you. So all i can do is to take the problems on , when it comes not before it comes.

i went library , hopefully they were in first (so i can try an opener which is like smile at them and not saying a word) why i did this ,is because #1 i know them , #2 they know me #3 i dont wanna lose value and just trying a new opener. so typing here i was watching the pickup artist 7 , and they said something which is true i am afraid of success . i remeber once i didnt pull the trigger =] and suck me back to LJBF zone.. hahaha but is okay , at least i learned something right?
hah so true barriers are meant to be broken , way to go joe.

so i was sitting there , nope didnt see them , so i proceed to prepare my stuff on my computer and stuff , then they came from the elevator. 4 girls , 1 fat , 3 chio cute and ready to be slaughted by the great tabby. Hey you must be thinking , thouse were T's girls but T had a gf and told me tat he didnt want to be too attached to them. So it's a fair game, T is a friend of mine , who is 1 year younger than me , but had dating experiences. He's a natural he using playfulness as a tatic for attraction. And guess what , one of them got hooked :) she has a crush with T.

Now the fat one is called Fgal , then newgal and cutiegal and cutiegal2
A brief history they are all friends , i do not know very well with Fgal and newgal , i went for a mini date before with cutiegal and cutiegal2 how it happened? i went to a arcade and saw them , then i was like hey , your t's friend , they were like yea. We played and we won a soft toy (on the crane thingy) should have used the fate -etching , but anyway didnt know about seduction stuff anyway. :) , i gave it 2 cutiegal

They were out , one of them saw me. it was cutiegal2, she point out at me like a honey to a bee
They buzz into my face in less than a second. My social value went to the top. Fgal doesnt seem too happy , they fly and touches my computer and mouse then this happened i had a panick attack , i didnt let them touch my computer

i just set up my computer (was at the login page) i logged in and they took my mouse and play i was like ahhh annoying... i logged in and in my front page there's this cute little dota panda verson ,

they were like .. ee act cute, i replied , it is cute ... i tried some stuff like , what you all doing here.. one major thing i did was , i told them 2 go do their stuff and not disturb me the Cutiegal always disturbing me saying wanted to see me play wanted to see me play... they sticked around... i kept doing that ( i was like horrrr... the heavens aparted and my pua is out) is it the pua out?? no i screwed up , i screwed up in the social dynamics... omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg...when i got the 4 girls hooked , The fat one came and isnt too happy about it and cock block me ... .!! i gotta get the situation back.. be cool about it tabby .. be cool...

i tried to counter with the bloody finger magic stuff , so i told them when they are about to leave, hey wanna see a magic??(i should have fucking noT!! )

they would like yea yea ( i could see they intrested , the CB went off , was pissed and wanted me to fail . i could see tat , so as a pua you can see , you must must handle social pressure , especially if they would like be kids) i tried the finger stuff on a girl who i not really know... haha FaTCB tried to make me fail .. hahahah , hey i just click back and watched the pickup artist , and i realise something , wow my game just gone up from realising this. THe cat sting theory , i didnt do that , i was concentrating on this one girl i dunno , (from the 5 , 3 of them tried , cutiegal2 was thinking where the magic is , the Newgal was tat girl who i focus on who's in front of me , the cutiegal was beside me , .. i know the cutiegal one better
i made a mistake actually 3

1. I should have focus on more on the cutiegal one who i know better , i just showed my intent... shit..
2. when i make one of them have the position , i should have gone to another one... , like throwing a ball , and let the cat see .. increases my value
3.. i should not have ask them all 2 try , maybe only 1... .......damn


But the result ... The newgal who i focus the most , i know she was attracted to me , i just demostrated my seeding/pre-selection quality , by having her peers comming to me and stuff.
i think that , at that moment i was the highest in value in that group , she was one of the lowest value in the group , she had to capture my attention to validate herself and increase her value. (do you know how i know? , before the magic thingy , i didnt cared about her when she keep saying.. say bye leh , say bye , it's like she wanted to say me to notice her , i said bye quickly and turned Yes i did right , make her work 4 it. ) but after my magic , i focus too much on her , damn.....

So FatCB went back , all 4 girls saw tat fatcb wasnt very happy , so they reluctenly go. except cutegirl, she wanted 2 stay but i told her , i nid to play so i go .. haha oldcutegal played with my mouse , like shaking it real hard , i touch my mousepad trying to get my control back..

seriously social dynamics i dont really understand , i my niche is on one 2 one.. more than one i will panick , but this time btr , when i was an afc , i would like WTF WTF WTF , but it's much better..

anyway.. i gotten peace and quiet. cutiegal came back . Here's some insider talk ...

she beside me (reminds me of a cat , i really like this cutiegal ... she is like your regular party gal , she cant stand intellectual stuff rather like to play around... really really cute girl.. ooo i wanna her to be my gf already.. anyway) you know how my school girl sit?? they kinda squat , so one fist blocking the skirt , cant lemme see the panties , anyway if she lemme see the panties i got something to counter.. haha

so here it goes

Tabby: Hey what you doing here?

Tabby : haha trying to know T's info right? (she has a crush with T but T had gf liao)
Cutiegal : T got TGF liao...
Tabby: well ppl do change one.
Cutiegal: (sad voice) ppl dont..

Tabby: If you trying to get more info with T , i charge 50 bucks for a question
Cutiegal laughed

sob.. after typing this , life threw something at me 3 gals came... !!!!!!!!!!!!!!

cutiegal , newgal and oldcutegal came.. fuck..i wasnt prepared for it so i had to cancel this draft , luckily i did so , i think they looked a bit , hopefully they dunno the blog of this site

well... i think skilldo would say something , always be prepared... damn this is ... one of the hardest part of a pua... you have no skills and you are forced into a situation where you cant do any fucking thing .

Sob sob , they wanted 2 play the computer , i didnt let them ... i didnt wanna jump into their hoops and i was watching something anyway , they disturb me so i told them 2 go away i tried to save the situation by telling them , hey let's make a deal , if you can win me in thumb wrestling i would let you use it (they wanna use it for .. stupid friendster) they look at each other and seems to say like who wanna challenge..??? i said give easy on you , i took both of their hands and played thumb wrestling , i got it from craig in DYD.. and for some reasons it's like one of my favourite gambits , it works so well on girls.. no matter what age (tested on 17yrs , 12 yr olds... )

jesus , they were hooked , and i won them ...haha ,but i dunno what to do from next , WTF WTF social dynamics .. really kills me ,(i pushed 20 %... didnt know what to do , so it's like your in a battlefield , with no armor and the oppoent was shooting machine gun , you get hit and hit and hit but dunno what to do only 2 get hit) however while playing , a black dressed gals told us not to play so loudly... ............. i just said you heard her , shhh...
then after finish i was a little uncomfortable , i wanted to go into the 13 gambit.. that i learn from SD .. WTF my pua inside of me told me .. no your like a performing monkey now... get out of it , it's gonna blow.. (i feel i feel so afc) :((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((

Then i tried to off eg.. website , a lot of stuff , cuz i was insecure and didnt want them to see , especially this blog , cutiegirl started to talk about hey you watching porn ah?

i was like ya , so dont disturb me ^^, she said something like ya i watched porn too ,watched my father and mother fucking... then newgirl said ya (something to mimic her) i realise something , cutiegirl was having one of the highest social status in that particular group .. she somehow i can feel attraction for me .. oldcutegal was like ... .. ... ... ... i feel that in that particular group , newgal and cutiegal had something for me , i think cutiegal was taking me as a replacement for T , while newgal seeing cutiegal had higher social status , wanted to have me , ( am i smelling a rivalry???) while oldcutegal took my watch , and play with it ..

i panick (if u see me just now, you would see i am cool and stuff , lean back .. but fuck i am in internal chaos inside) Then we watch some lame ass , show brotherforsale.. i was like -_-.... then i was like.. okay i wanna see something else.. AHHH AFC OUT AFC OUTTT cutiegal , very energetic ( i love this type too , i love intellectual , but this time is good , but her weakness is her short attention span)..i notice she playing with my ear pieace (cheap cheap 1 dollar one) then in the midst of things , but i dont allow 2 budge so oldcutegal threw my watch , then look for a while and went off...

i think i know my mistake here , all this time oldcutegal wanted me to talk to her , i should have talk to her and give her "hope" so she would be locked in (cat string theory)

A little history background on oldcutegal and cutiegal , they both are like sisters , always together , so my guess is cutiegal gave the impression that she likes me , so oldcutegal saw the illusion of my seeding quality and wanted to find reasons for me to impress her , so that she can blow me off , or another thing i think is , she is cute so guys always hit on her (she's much more outgoing , than cutiegal , let's think more like a extrovert , and cutie gal introvert) but for some reason i didnt hit on her , she felt not validated .. so she isnt too happy

well ... oldcutegal ... was really cute and mature looking , reminds me of sec 3 gals but with a sec 1 twist ,

then since it was on friendster i told them , hey wanna watch some japanese stuff , so i didnt wait for their reply and type in japanese pranks...

well first one was boring , seeing old ppl sitting on seats and the seat just push out , then the poor ppl fly out into the snow , i see newgal was bored , i cut the thread and went on another with i wanted to let them watch human tetis (well as you know i dunno how to spell , so .. i typed in japanese pranks human and found it) experiment again

this time , when i was in church with my laptop (this laptop has been a partner in crime with me for sometime haha regardings to attraction)2 gals aroiund 19~ liked human tetis so much they laugh and stuff (then again i am a baka at social dynamics)

so i try , see if the age gap got anything 2 do with it... they ate it , but not strong... !!! sigh this gotta be one of the worse day of my life , but i learn a lot .. jesus it's hard , i wish one of you would help me by gimme tips i can try.. i looking around now , juggling with watching thepickupartist esp 4 and i notice something , all the girls are going in groups , it's like all the ugly girls one group , and all the cute gals one group.

So for me to be a real pua , i must master social dynamics.. now i wish i had mystery watching over and telling me what to do like in esp 4 .......... well now i failed to entertain them i feel a little like a loser , maybe it's due to my pua training that i dont feel it so badly like in afc where i would feel like hitting on the wall now..

i wanna enter the master pick up artist ... =( can someone take me out into the field and really show me how it works? i look like a blind pig going into a den of wolves... sigh... honestly i feel like giving up like 30% of the body is doing this , 80% is like nah, it's okay . next . i feel that a part of me wanna stick 2 the comfort zone that i should not spoil my chances with these gals

chances are like this

my afc which gotten like 30% of my body wants this

(dont screw up , take w/e you have , thouse gals are cute enough and live your life with it , it's okay to chase them , it's okay to perform for them , let's them be happy , and i get my pussy)

My pickup artist which is like 70% of my body have this

Scew it up , as much as you can , they are just testing grounds , if you cant fucking handle this how are you going to handles Hot babes and models , cute gals ??? it's okay to lose , them look at the bigger picture ... Yes your afc might say what if i cant find them or qualities like them , chances are you dont , you will either find much better or much worse , and if you fail . You gain EXPERIENCE , from experience , you screw up a bit more until you gotten a solid game. When you gotten a solid game , dont talk to them for 2 months or more (would be easy) then game them again .. SEE no losing , no biggie =]

i wanted to enroll into the army cuz i am bored in life and is pissed about how i lived with my body but now i realise , if u wanna change , you have to change yourself if not , no ammount of death or w/e can force you 2 change

Fuck i am so instant grafication , i want it now , i want it now.. but i know i have to delay my grafication for a better game...

haha that's if you dont understand i would try to explain , .. =] hopefully next time i would be able to type better and have a tighter game =]